What a twist of events

Look I never expected to say this but I finally in National University of Singapore. After months of speculation of my future, I finally got my wish. Can you just feel this joy in me? How could this had happened. I would like to thank a few people. First, all those who supported me... Next people, my mum who helped me do my appeal. And NUS for giving me this second chance... I will do my very best not to waste this chance... I think this calls for a celebration ok...

My greatest heroes

Nope I am not going write about Superman or Batman... I am going to talk about the heroes in my life-my parents. Why do I say that?? They have put countless effort and time to bring me up to what I have become today. I have always thought of them as a dynamic duo working hand-in-hand.

My mum has been the vocal one in the relationship. She is probably the voice in the house. She is always very concern about our personal welfare and often makes it known. She is the one who makes sure that all our needs are met and that we are well taken care off. As a kid, I was the weakest academically. As a result I got the most tuition. I used to hate tuition. I used to think it was my mum's plot to use it to kill me. Anyway, as I grew older, I saw the purpose of it. She knew I needed help and that was the way she thought was best to help. In fact, I automatically wanted to fet tuition on my own in my junior college days. She just know best.(P.S: My math tuition was free during jc cos it was conducted by my Dad. Sob sob.) What more can you ask in a mum.

My Dad is the one who carries out the actions. That is alot of things that needs to be said about this man. He is so highly intelligent that I sometimes find out how his mind works. Not only is he very analytical but he is also technically sound. He is so technically sound that if I ask him a math question, most likely he will be able to answer it. Furthermore, I think he has always been a silent supporter for me. He just don't want to say if I did great or it was a good job done. He will says there will be room of improvement. At first, I was kinda pissed cos i had already put in my best efforts so what more does he want me to do. As the years went by, this created a sense of hunger that i wanted to prove that I could make it to him. On this, I think he won cos that was what he actually what he wanted. I think all these years he has been silently watching me grow and only appearing when I needed it. What more can you ask in a Dad??

Friendship that will last forever...

I met 2 of my best friends at Camp Leaping Wolf in 2005. Weird as it seems, I always felt how can 3 people with different personality click so well.

First, we have Faridah. A lovely little lady as can be. The main cockster of the group as I would say. I don't know what it is but she can make a joke out of nothing. That is boy of an incredible skill to have... Training to be a nurse right now. Can't imagine myself as her patient... I just wanna wish her all the best in her training and please don't be so stress...

Second, my main man Eugene. This guy I got a lot to say. Appears to be a quiet little boy... Actually got more to him than you can ever imagine. Appears to have alot of common traits like me in the way we answer. Standard anwers are like 'anything' and 'anywhere'. You need to open him up become he will talk. Actually wanted to call him 'iceman' but thought about it and just threw the idea away... It surprise me that he actually had an actually girlfriend. Even showed me the picture. I can't believe it. I just can't imagine him going on a date with our standard answers. I really appreciate him in the sense if i got a problem, I will probably go to him first. Why? Because, he will listen and I think he will listen some more and wait till the right time to give you a good solution. Now that is why I love my Eugene so much...( I not gay by the way)

Then there is me. I like to think I am somewhere between the both of them. I can be lame at times. At others I talk too much. And still I have my quiet times. It all depends on the suitation. But i dont think any of you have realize that yet. Anyways, I very sad cos I lose to Eugene in terms of love... Haiz... But this kinda of things better let nature go by itself.... That is all have to say for today...

Thanks for the four years...

These were the 4 most memorable years of my life. Those were the days. I was running all about doing this and doing that but I just never felt tired. You guessed it, I'm talking about my days at Broadrick. Usually when I try to explain that I'm from Broadrick, the reply would be 'huh', 'what' and 'come again'. Yes it is not a top school like Dunman High or Victoria where my sibilings are but this is the place is where I was nurtured to be the person that I am today. I enjoyed my stay. There is something about the environment and the people that make the place so so memorable.

First, let's talk about the people. There are the teachers. What to say about them. They really care and would go the extra mile if you just ask for help. Too many good teachers to mention. Mrs Radha, Mr Lim, Ms Chen, Ms Tan, Mrs Vasughi, etc... These people were at some point of time my heroes. They showed the path to success. Mrs Radha, for example, was my favourite teacher of all time. She would always make laugh and made my interest in maths stronger. Somehow, we both just clicked. She sort of became my mentor from secondary 3-4. She would always have the faith in me that I will do well by hook or by crook. She even mentioned to my Mum that my results were like a roller coaster, and to find out the grade for my next test was easy just look at the previous test.

Then there were the students. Not a very bright bunch I would say. But I saw a committment in some of them that made me spur on. My classmate Hwa Ee was one such person. Well she was determined to go to a junior college for her dead brother. She gave me strength to go the extra mile in my final year.

The environment was bad. No doors, no air-con etc. Sometimes it was just too harsh to bare. But somehow I always thought a harsh environment made me wanna work harder. Maybe it did. I took a look at the new school rebuilt just down the street. Looks good on the outside. Makes me wanna go inside to take a good look. Maybe I should go pay everyone a visit. That would have been so cool right. Anyways, that is all I have to say.

The girl i once knew...

I probably had my first crush at 12. I had many since then. But there would always only beone first love. I met this incredible girl at primary 6. At first, I was not reading too much into her. Eventually we got into the same secondary school and on the same class for two whole years. It was in our secondary school days when it happened. I kinda got to understand her a little better. And gosh did she have a smile on her face everytime I saw her in class. Her smile was so bright that I forgot all my problems everytime I saw it.(P.S: I had a lot of problems juggling my life back then) And then it happened, I was smittened. She took my heart away. Nevertheless, I knew at the same time my studies were also important, so i kinda disregard this emotions for a long time. I even comtemplate myself to be in a lesser off class just to not get near her.( this turned into a major bumper years later. I will say it here and here only, I regretted this decision.) Well, I hung out tough for about half a year but i could not resist it anymore. I told her. Beening the kind soul that she was, she told me nicely that she wanted to concentrate on her studies.( meaning moi got rejected. And this kinda gave me strength to never give up later in my years in junior college.) A year or so past, we got seperated. She was at Tampines Junior College, I was at Serangoon Junior College. I still had the feeling. I finally take my chances and asked her out a week before her birthday 2005. She agreed. I bought a lovely bracelet, treated her to a nice lunch at Fish and Co. We had a lively time and I thought I had sealed the deal. I was so totally WRONG. Before I enlisted into the army December 9 2005, I tried to ask her out again. She would not answer or just replied she am busy. I only managed to talk to her only on December 8 2005. I told her everything. And I got rejected for a second time. Ever since then I never looked at girls the same way I always did. I got dejected. I still am dejected. Both of us remains friends til this day, but I will never forget the girl I once knew.

Underdogs

Underdogs were never meant to rule this world. They were meant to be losers, sent to eternal condemnation. Yet every once and in a while, underdogs have shown that they can outshine the rest and hung out on top. Do you remember the yesteryears when Greece won Euro '02 or when the Detroit Pistons defeated the L.A Lakers back in '04 for the NBA title. I always had a love for the underdogs because I always felt I was one. Since young, I was not the smartest, not the most athletic, not the most skilled. So I think my parents were a little worried about how this kid will turn out. So far, I think I fared alright. I surprised even myself sometimes. I was made to believe I was going into the normal stream and made to believe that I should go to the polytechinc.( No offence to those within this catergory) But I guess with a little bit of hard work, struggle and luck, I made it where I am today.( Just a little disappointed I can't get into NUS though) Anyways, underdogs are a little special I think. They are probably not as skilled or intelligent, but I think they have a little more hunger in them than the most of us cause they believe they have something to prove. They will fight til the end. That is why you people should give support to underdogs too.

Never-say-die

Never say die. Few people can claim that they have that kind of spirit. What does that spirit encompass?? To never give up hope no matter how nasty a siutation might be. It is a must-have quality that all successful people must engulf. Noone was born with a silver spoon just that some people have more resources than others.

I always wanted to develop this quailty since young. I realised that with such a quality nothing can pull me down. I would be able to fight on regardless. It would be painful sometimes.

I looked at Elizabeth as I taught her maths today. The more she did, I could the more the tension building up. She just cannot link the steps together. This lead to frustration which eventually lead to her giving up on herself. I felt sad for her. I tried everything to break it down for her. Tried my best to make it seem simpler. But her fundermentals were just not there. I am not madat her. I am just mad at myself. What could I do to improve my skills? Am I a failure? The more I thought of it, the more I told myself not to despair. In life, the winners always pick themselves up. I will do everything in my will to help her achieve that A. It is a challenge. And I never back down from no challenge.
P.S: Thanks for the new shirt to that special someone. It is a new collection to my NBA stash.

Faith

I was in church today listening sermon regarding Faith. As I listened to Father Chua, the more this question intruge me.

Faith is intangible. It can be measured yet it can have such tremendous effect on people whether positive or negative. It plays an important role in peoples life at one point or another. The classic examples are mentioned in today's Gospel in which a woman was healed by touching Jesus cloak because she believed and the little girl who was revived because of her parents faith.

Just how important is Faith is??

Faith is important because it gives you a belief. It can encompass many aspects: religion, inner self, success etc. This belief is regardless of the ups and downs in life. Take me for example. Years ago, it was only belief that I could make it to a junior college. It was kinda expected of me to go to a polytechnic. Yet in the end, I make the cut.

Take another look at my Miami Heat this year too. Noone give them a chance to ever win the NBA title. However they eventually turn a 2-0 deficit to become the new NBA champion.

In conclusion, what I want to say Faith is essential in everything we do and we must take note of that because if we believe the wrong thing, it would lead to negative consequence.