Happiness

Today one of my friends reminded me that we should always try to remember to be happy regardless of what situations we are in. She said that if we are happy, life will be more blissful. I think that is quite true right. I think that most of the time why we are so moody is because we think of the bad side of life and not really think of what God has already given us thus far. Of course, as humans we always demand more out of life. We want more and better stuff. We are hardly satisfied. In a way it helps us progress as a society but it also makes us greedy which is a drawback. I will try to keep this theory in mind. Thanks bud.

emptiness

I feel this unquenchable emptiness within me. For what reason you may ask? I myself do not know. It just that I feel that I do not have the same passion I used to have like my younger days. I feel like s**t. And that is not good. I think it is partly cause I do not have a purpose currently. I used to have something to look forward to. I used to have a drive. My God. Maybe probably I know more now so I kinda like lost my child-like mentality. Haiz. I just so want to be NUS now. I mean ya I know when I am there I will still like complaining but at least I am doing something. Why?? I am just so damn frustrated. I just need someone to talk to. My God. then again, I should not be complaining. I am so looking forward to the trips at the end of the year. Yeah. That should be my goal. So it probably aint that bad. Haiz.

Motivation

Motivation is all about the heart and the determination. It is always easier said than done. Everyone has been there before. They want something so bad that they are willing to try or do anything. Nevertheless, not all the times we are able to come up with a solution. But what is heart and what is determination to me? Heart is to know that the situation will be tough but one is willing to fight it with all he has got whereas determination is the willingness to go the extra mile through all difficulties and pain. I have been lucky. I don't really to have to feel motivated throughout my life. I got a good family, good friends and I am doing ok so far. I have no real problems in life. I wonder what will happen to me when I finally meet my first test in life. Will I just run away? Will I stay and fight? That I really do not know. But I really pray that when that the day comes, I will fight it with all the vigor that I can muster. I pray that I will not flutter. I hope that I will pick myself under all circumstances. Life can be so painful sometimes. Let's just hope it doesn't get worse ya. Peace.

Tiredness

These days I been feeling really tired. Is there a scientific reason or is it just me? Could it be because of the high fever I suffered last week or is it because of sleep deprivation I have been imposing on myself. Last few days I have been saying for more than 9++ hours... Haiz... Sian... Its just so not like me lor. I hope there is nothing wrong with me. Peace out.