Wonder if anyone still bothers to read my entries. Been posting quite abit lately. Been having an internal struggle lately. Havent been shaving and the hair been growing like nuts. I'm been wanting to have the mysterious look for some time now. I promised my Mum I will trim it. Haha. Looks like I have no choice man. Will post a picture if I succeed!

I'm back. Got my results today. Not too good. Worse results I have received from NUS. Haiz. I feel so down man. What to do? I'm taking one line from the Jordan commercial- love is not quitting your day job. The thing that I think I need most now. You ask me what my day job is. Well, my main day job is just to be me. I hope my face wont be so black later la. I don't know how to face nobody. Haha. Think I have to think of some lame jokes to perk myself up. Will upload the jokes if I think of anything lame. :D.

WOOHOO!!!!

I have been listening to this song on youtube endlessly these couple of days. Reminds me of myself at times la. Think the lyrics are damn meaningful. Though he is rapping and some people might not like it, but if read through the lyrics, you might just think of it as motivational la. So I'm just leaving these lyrics for you guys to enjoy. Peace!

LOSE YOURSELF LYRICS

Look.. if you had.. one shot, or one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted.. in one moment
Would you capture it.. or just let it slip? Yo..

His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy
There's vomit on his sweater already, mom's spaghetti
He's nervous, but on the surface he looks calm and ready
to drops bombs, but he keeps on forgetting
what he wrote down, the whole crowd goes so loud
He opens his mouth but the words won't come out
He's chokin, how? Everybody's jokin now
The clock's run out, time's up, over - BLAOW!
Snap back to reality, OHH - there goes gravity
OHH - there goes Rabbit, he choked
He's so mad, but he won't
Give up that easy nope, he won't have it
He knows, his whole back's to these ropes
It don't matter, he's dope
He knows that, but he's broke
He's so sad that he knows
when he goes back to this mobile home, that's when it's
back to the lab again, yo, this whole rap shift
He better go capture this moment and hope it don't pass him

[Chorus]
You better - lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go (go)
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime
You better - lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go (go)
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime
You better..

Soul's escaping, through this hole that is gaping
This world is mine for the taking
Make me king, as we move toward a, new world order
A normal life is boring; but superstardom's
close to post-mortem, it only grows harder
Homie grows hotter, he blows it's all over
These hoes is all on him, coast to coast shows
He's known as the Globetrotter
Lonely roads, God only knows
He's grown farther from home, he's no father
He goes home and barely knows his own daughter
But hold your nose cause here goes the cold water
These hoes don't want him no mo', he's cold product
They moved on to the next schmoe who flows
He nose-dove and sold nada, and so the soap opera
is told, it unfolds, I suppose it's old partner
But the beat goes on da-da-dum da-dum da-dah

[Chorus]

[Verse 3]
No more games, I'ma change what you call rage
Tear this motherfuckin roof off like two dogs caged
I was playin in the beginning, the mood all changed
I've been chewed up and spit out and booed off stage
But I kept rhymin and stepped right in the next cypher
Best believe somebody's payin the pied piper
All the pain inside amplified by the
fact that I can't get by with my nine to
five and I can't provide the right type of
life for my family, cause man, these God damn
food stamps don't buy diapers, and there's no movie
There's no Mekhi Phifer, this is my life
And these times are so hard, and it's gettin even harder
Tryin to feed and water my seed plus, teeter-totter
Caught up between bein a father and a primadonna
Baby momma drama screamin on her too much for me to wanna
stay in one spot, another day of monotony
has gotten me to the point, I'm like a snail I've got
to formulate a plot, or end up in jail or shot
Success is my only motherplotting option, failure's not
Mom I love you but this trailer's got to go
I cannot grow old in Salem's Lot
So here I go it's my shot, feet fail me not
This may be the only opportunity that I got

[Chorus]

[Outro]
You can do anything you set your mind to, man

What's up, fellas? Just came back from retreat last night. A 2 days 1 night event. I think I had the best of chats with Yippy. He gave me the best of advice and set me on a whole new direction. Really appreciated it. Think the retreat was something nice and something of a change. Mel Heng had to remind me that we are 3 weeks away from d day man. Damn! Haha. My target: impact 1 person in the camp. Just one person will do. Come to think of it, I think i need to thank someone here. She is none other then VV(aka LP)! VV was the first one i recruit for my subcomm. First person. She is a person I can totally trust on and put my faith on. Best things I like about her: her generosity and her eagerness. So far she has attended every single one of my damn meetings. Shows you how determined she is to make this work.(or maybe it is just because she got nothing better to do, but of course I would prefer the former)Most importantly, she cn take my rubbish. And guess what: she actually understands about 70-80% of my jokes. How cool is that man! Same wavelength man. It is like with her, I don't even need to explain my damn bloody jokes! Good job vv. Promised you a treat after the camp an I will do it ok? Just need to find a good old Korean resturant! Sighs but I should not think so far la. that is all I have to say for now. Peace!

campfire mc

OMG, Junie made me campfire mc last night. I'm really flattered about how much she trusts me and stuff, but I can tell you its a big task and I myself am not sure whether i can do the job or not. Sure people might think I have the gift of the gab, but I also know I'm actually a quiet boy boy inside. But ok la, I will just try my best. Had to tell my buddy that we couldn't hold any meetings that period cause of the preparation and stuff. Felt pretty bad actually but I gave him the Stare, so he just said ok. Thank God man. Cause I told myself liao, I can miss everything except campfire and campfire preparation cause I know myself it takes alot of work. And by then it is already day 2 and 3 which technically means Junie and the other YAs only probably slept less than 6 hours for the 2 days combined. Besides, I think she knows that I LOVE campfire, and singing campfire songs. Haha, please dont be surprised if I keep singing just a couple of songs like moonlight bay and pass it on. But i won't be so bad la, still will sing stuff like campfire burning and the yell thingy. Forgot what it is called but I can still yell can. I going to make all the guides cannot tahan me by making them yell it a couple of times in various speeds. I think I got alot of ideas. Just dont know if Junie will let me la.:( Haha. Will see.

It's the holiday so there is only one thing left to do: have fun! Seems like I am really busy these couple of weeks! I look at my calendar and I am like WOW! Haha! First time in a long long time that my holidays are these packed. And I'm really not whining. I'm really enjoying it. My main event is to do my Freshman Orientation Camp properly and make sure that the games follow well. (since I am in charge of games) Thankful, my co head is very nice and it seems our manpower problem for the subcomm has been solved. All we need to do now is to work. We are going to reece Sentosa on Monday by the way. Something really funny happened though. It was supposed to be a games comm event but at the dim sum lunch with the main comm today, it turns out that this will become a whole comm outing/reece. I'm also looking forward for all the parish outreach. I hope my gift of the gab when it comes to speaking with strangers helps. I am actually really scared when it comes to this part but as usual, I will try lor. But oh cause, there are many other things I want to do also lah. I got a retreat next week, I going to watch the Harlem Globaltrotters with Eugene. ( wanted to ask bkb and xf to come but as usual my taste and their taste different) I starting to feel a little shag after not getting enough sleep and I think its only high time I should go get some sleep, but I don't sleep at this time even when it is term time. Man. One more thing I want to add, I read the same bible passage 3 times in 5 days. I think it is a sign! I will keep it in mind. :) Ok, I think that is it. Good night. Greg out. Peace.

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I can't believe that I have officially finished my exams a couple of days ago. I can't remember who but I think my friend Gabriel was the one telling me that now that this sem is actually over, I 'm year 2 offically as well! OMG la. I can't believe that a year had already past so fast. You know I have so many emotions running through me right now especially when I think back on this sem. It has also been hard for me to figure what exactly I wanted to do with my life and it was really a struggle for me to sit down at the end of last sem to declare my major first. I thought logically and realistically what was good for me and had just decided to declare economics. And all I can say is through the many bizarre happenings this sem, I realised that I had lived in an idealistic world for the past 5 years roughly. Economics is not all words but using words to describe the numbers. So there you have it I am now a social work major. Of course I did enjoy my social work module this sem as well and I 'm really hoping to get an A for it. (if not my CAP is going down drastically) But besides that, social work, as I have realised, is now my calling. And as mst of you who know me personally, I don't mince my words. I am very realistic about the job and I kinda know what it entails. It involves: long hours, poor pay, low social standing, and is a tough job. It also involves increasing the social functioning of people. That is what I'm looking at but at the same time I am an idealist. It doesn't mean I want to come in and help everybody. I know if I can come in and out of 10, help 2-3 cases successfully, well hey that is good enough for me.