moi back @ srjc

Today I went back to school to pay a visit Mr Lam a visit. I was so damn excited... He was probably 1 man I truly respected back in SRJC. We had a heart-to-heart talk. He was trying to find out more about the SAF whilst I was to trying to get advice for University from him... So it pretty funny cos we were on different band width... Anywayz, it was like so cool being in an environment I had missed so much... I wanted to thank Mrs Kok for her appeal letter but she was not in so it was a pity... I think I would be visiting Broadrick tomorrow so it would be interesting cos I would have more people I would be looking forward too... Peace out...

moi @ the singapore phillips cup

Hmmm... How should I start off writing about an event that involves a sport that I just love so much??? I shall start off by say that I started off the day a little bit angry. I found out that the best seats in the house were reserved only for the season ticket holders... To think that I actually wanted to sit up close and get autographs if possible... Nevertheless, that was just a dream I just. So I took the next best seats in the house. The first two matches were played by people around the region. Overall, I felt that there were times where we Asians showed potential yet there were room for improvement... I know we aint got the height to mess with the rest but I think we have the speed and quickness over the Europeans. And that maybe something we can exploit. Anyways, the European matches opened my eyes. This was what basketball was all about. They took the game to another level. In the end, Spain won the event.(though Pau did not play much, plus what I really wanted to see was the Gasol brothers play together.) Furthermore, I got a glimpse of NBA stars like Manu, Pau and Nesterovic. It was so star studded... I actually saw them in real life. Do you know how much that means to me?? In the end, I stay on to catch the prize presentation and maybe see Pau in real person. After watching the prize presentation, I decided to watch them cool down. It then dawn on me that I may have a chance to get an autograph from Pau if I went to stand at the locker room gate way... It kinda paid off. I managed to get an autograph and shake his hand... That was like the happiest moment of my life... I going to keep the singlet...
P.S: I can't wait for another such event to be organised... Cya guys soon...

Loneliness

I was listening to a solomon that day regarding LONELINESS. It appears everyone including Chirst himself experience it at some point of time. Loneliness is a form of human feeling that is not very nice to experience having been there at many periods of my life. I agreed that loneliness is growing in today's society as people get more alienated. This can lead to negative effects as more and more people have no where to turn to for their problems. The eventual outcome: suicide. To think we could have lost some of our brightest man and women just saddens me to the core. Many times I have feel this way in my life. I really wanted to give up. But what keep me alive was what Father had said. Everyone experienced this and they dont give up so why should you?? I am but not a grain of sand in this huge universe. So the morale of the story is-never give up and always i say always talk to people around you on your feelings lest you might find yourself dead soon...

Why must it be you??

I have been taking long walks these couple of days trying to clear my confused mind once again. I am in a identity crisis. I have been trying to find myself cos all of a sudden i feel so queer and so human. I just wanted what the hack made me feel this way. I just feel so lost. Too much have been going on lately. At one point of time I had been trying to prepare myself to go over to the US. I was learning the TOEFL and driving. I was reading stuff of the net about my new school. And just that faithful day, NUS just accepted me. My first reaction - are you pulling my leg?? After the acceptance letter came I discovered that it was true. I tell you someone in the heavens must love me. First, i can't believe I got to the express stream. Then I can't believe i got to a Junior College. Now I can't believe I made it to Singapore premier university. What is this?? I look around. I see many people despondant, like I was months ago, either retaking their A's or going to SIM. Me, I got a second chance. Do you know how sick it makes me feel?? When I told Mr Lam about it, he congraulated me and told me I got in cos I really wanted it. It was true in a way but I wanted to share this joy with my fellow friends and classmates in SRJC by allowing them to join me. That is not visable though no matter how much I crave it. Why of all people it must be me?? The person up there must be nuts. I believe that there are more deserving people out there than me. God I just feel so lost... Can anyone out there advise me alittle.