the lovely world of mine

2010-01-08T17:25:00.002+08:00

F***ED UP!!

2010-01-04T15:56:00.002+08:00

One week to show time. Did not really have the opportunity to bid for my mods cause it really seems I no chance til next round. Its really omg la. Haha cant believe i have one more week and still have to do this kind of shit. Anyways I finally found an alternate module to do. It does not really bother me that I am going to do it alone man. Sometimes it is better that way. Wont get distracted by stuff I suppose. But I really hope I can get to do deviance la. LALALA!!! Ok la I'm off!

2010-01-02T12:04:00.002+08:00

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all
I want to doIs be more like me and be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me?
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control?
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
And I know I may end up failing too
But I know you were just like me
With someone disappointed in you
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me?
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control?
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more awareI'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
And I know I may end up failing too
But I know you were just like me
With someone disappointed in you
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more awareI'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
I've become so numb I can't feel you thereI'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you thereI'm tired of being what you want me to be

2009-12-31T18:52:00.003+08:00

Ok, it's NYE. Haha! I almost had a date.(sorta la she was an old friend) But in the end I went to hang at my old sec school friend's home. Party hasnt started yet that is why Im here blogging sia. LOL. The year really pass by so quickly man. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Tomorrow will be visiting the national museum first time. GOGOGO!! Might be going for a second time though. :D. WOOHOO!!! Ok la, I should join my friends liao. LOL. Still waiting for the idiot bkb to come come come!!!

2009-12-31T00:48:00.003+08:00

Battle scars. Why battle scars you might ask? I think when I thought if that today I was thinking of it in terms of the metphorical sense. I really sense that 09 was a bad year for me. Maybe you can say I had too many battle scars. Scars that I really hope that make me stronger. You know you can say that no cause is not a lost cause and I'm really a prime example. I'm really heading into a sem with no motivation and nothing, and I say again, nothing to look forward to. Its that bad. The only thing that is keeping me going is that the fact that I can graduate on time and the fact that maybe just maybe I can pick mods I like the following sem. I really hoping the other core mod does not clash with medical social work. And I'm really praying for that as well as the fact that they would offer the other counselling mod in sem 2 next year. Anything else I am looking out for. Soci of family, Culture and Society and a whole load of mods that interest me. LOL. I guess you can call me a mugger toad. My life now revolves around css and school. I guess it's because you can say my heart is not in the right place. But then again you can argue with me, as all good arts student will, what right means. So how to make it right again? Only time will tell. Only time will tell.

At this point of time, I want to thank God for all that has happened this year. For all the trials and tribulations. For the many many friends I made. For the freshies lives I touched during foc. I thank God.

I probably should end on a soft note. Must really thank auds again for reminding me to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I pray for a good 2010. For a good attachment and all that will happen. Amen.

2009-12-30T17:36:00.001+08:00

Words of the day- battle scars!

2009-12-29T20:54:00.002+08:00

I think I am really a blur cock! I learnt 2 things today which are very important! If there are 2 things that I need now more than anything it is self confidence and patience. Maybe I have to explain my self a little bit here and tell you how all this came about.

For the longest period of time, I knew for a fact that I have low self-confidence. I think its partly because all my family members are all overachievers la. Somehow, I wasnt the most athletic, smartest or best musically. So somehow, I was under everyone else's shadow. I havent found my own niche. You will always hear me saying, "I can't do this" or "I can't do that". It is really pretty common. That was til I met Audrey. Audrey is really a very cute girl la. I think for once someone outside my family recognised the gem in me. She is always telling me to have more confidence and that I can do it. And somehow I think I need to learn more of that hor Audrey. Maybe I should start doing things my own way and show this side of me la. LOL.

Ok so how did I learn that I need to have patience lei. Well, I was waiting at a busstop just now. I kept saying, "Sians!". I think my friend quite irritated. He told me need to have more patience lor. I thought about it in the bus actually. The 20-30 mins journey quite thought provoking I think. Maybe I am really an impatient person. Maybe I want stuff instantly. I really cant wait. I think its partly my Dad's fault. He is always rushing rushing and rushing. So I really am rubbing of him. Its probably in my subconscious according to Mr Freud. That is something I have to change being it for school work or my relationships with people la.

And people, I got my allocated modules for one point. I havent checked my accounts yet but I'm guessing I 'm pretty rich. I am going to spend all my points on soci mods! We'll see. :D

2009-12-28T16:47:00.002+08:00

I had a convo with my friend about whats missing in our lives. Quite interesting cause I think thats what I have been asking myself the last few months. He gave me a few new ideas I havent really like considered yet. Well what struck me was the fact that we constantly change so that is no point of thinking of trying to go in a certain direction. Maybe God put me in this place and in this time for a reason. Haha. We'll see la. I getting kel to take deviance also. Haha more people more fun.

2009-12-27T16:00:00.002+08:00

Ok so I had cheesecake last night with pearl. pretty nice outing i think! hmmm havent seen the freshie in a very long time. last time i saw the kiddo was.... so long that i really cant remember. and the thing is we stay so near each other. I thought im busy kid liao... Lol... she more busy than me can.... Her waiting list is like longer than mine 10x. Lol. but really had a nice little chat with her lor. i think we should be taking deviance together next sem.... she is a soci major.(until she finally can become a psych major next sem aft taking the stats mod... seriously the psych dept abit crazy) she is also taking another mod that i wanted to do but cant...cant remember why but i think is either timetable not nice or exam clash... but oh well one mod is better than nothing. im busy slacking off today... and its really nice not having anything to do for once... but i really miss school i think. well not the studying part at least. i really miss the people portion. sitting around arts corner talking cock is damn nice la... i kinda miss cgs also... hmmm i wonder what day is cheryl and ran hosting it next sem cause i want to follow up... last sem ran will be my cgl lor. he graduating soon. sighs... one of the nicest seniors around. thats why i m also taking care of my freshies as well. that is if hmmm they want me to help la. i think pearl is like one good example la. been teaching her how to bid... planning for mods and what not.... but i think she damn smart can. her cap now like 4.2? better than me when i first came in. my best sem ever only cap 4. haha... sians... anyways... im ending off here ok! :D

2009-12-23T20:52:00.002+08:00

Maybe my earlier post was a little depressing. Ok here's the deal. I don't really think I'm skipping the sem all together next sem. This is despite the fact that hey I can't seem to find any electives that I really really want to do. Victor is right in the sense that maybe I should stick to the core mods. And guess what- they should only be one point each. Considering the fact that I'm underloading again, means I taking 2 other mods of my choice la. I m looking at the soci department. No soci of family offered though. Hmmm deviance is nice. Ok, I really have to start planning liao lor. Sians. HAHA! planning is not funny can? But will do la. Ok I should start doing it now hor. Ok la, Im off!

2009-12-23T14:20:00.002+08:00

Hello peeps. Ok, I got 2 weeks left of holidays. Hmm, I still dont know if I want to go back to school for the next sem or not. Really considering taking the sem off and just slack. My parents ask me what I want to do during that period and I just replied nothing. Exactly, I want to do NOTHING! I want to rot my life away in a hole. Ok maybe thats an exaggeration but I really want to do nothing. I kinda realised something during my last trip. I realised whyI like to go ulu places, I realised why I love East Malaysia so much. Because there is really nothing much to do so after 7, all you can do is just slack. Victor was telling me to go back cause I aint that old and I should be thinking such thoughts but I dont think he knows how tired I am. I dont think people realised that I have more or less been doing things for others and not for myself. I have been more or less out every day of the hols but which of these activities have I really want to go? I would say about only 10%. Haha. I think most of the time I just wanted to show face and be there for the people that I care for. Ya you can say noone force me but ya it's just me la. I think I m still kinda the responsible kid that looks out for everyone la.

Anyways, I got back my grades yesterday. Hmm, I really happy with the A and the A- I got. My first A in NUS was a module that I took for my dead Uncle. Don't know if it was divine intervention but I m really glad that I got the A cause I would have been disappointed with anything below a B+. This was a promise I made to myself before the sem started and thank goodness I got it la. The A- was a little unexpected cause I was going to su the module and I think I never really study for the module. I like tried my best to answer the module without full knowledge whether I was in the right direction or not. Seems like my answering technique works. I think if anybody taking the mod in the future, I would advice them what i did.

The 2 other mods I did for the sem were a little disappointing. I was happy for one of them in a way cause I kinda screw up like at the exam. so getting a c+ wasnt that bad la. But considering the effort I had put in for the module, I dont really think it was justifiable. I got a b- for the last mod. Actually I was like WTF WTF WTF. I thought I could get a b and above. Likewise for the mod above, I put in a considerable effort into the mod and I thought it would have been nice if I got a decent grade not that a b- is not good la. Sighs.

Guess I got to work on my grades. LOL... I need a .03 to get to honours class. hopefully my grades are good next sem...

2009-12-21T11:52:00.000+08:00

As I lay down in the stillness of the dark,
Counting the seconds, minutes and hours.
These problems that sprung like wild weed
Still haunt and choke me.
I used to think I was so strong,
With all my ideals and dreams.
But where are they now I asked.
Where are they now?
Naive I was before,
Naive I will continue to be.
Maybe it is time for me to grow and change.
Rethink what I stand for.

my get away

2009-12-16T17:48:00.002+08:00

Ok, so I'm finally in Kuching, Malaysia. Just really chilling here with my friend gabs ya. So far, I think Im loving the fact that I can move around on my own without anyone complaining but the only thing that I can whine about is the fact that well the shops close DAMN early la. And there are no like convience stores around the corner. PANGSEH!!! So ya, i probably slept the earliest last night in a lonnnnggg time!! LOL. Ok, should entertain my poor friend now LOL. He is kinda bored.(or at least I think la) See if later i can come back and blog or not.

2009-12-15T00:23:00.002+08:00

Ok I'm finally dusting the cobwebs of this site. Sorry to all the loyal fans ok? Im probably like a few weeks into holiday right now. Hmm... Ok let me first recap my sem all right? This sem has been good at least I'm finally doing what I love which is the most important thing. However, I think it has been pretty tough also cause I had not had a proper break since st1 before year 1 sem 1 and the fact that I wanted to pull up my cap meant that I worked harder than any other sems before. My readings were alot and I think I did my best to finish. (Some mods I read less than half. Oops!) Nevertheless, I think I did a great job. *twist fingers as I wait for the results*

Hmmm, also, I think this sem posed another question. what do I want out of life? Where am I heading? These were questions I asked myself daily. Very important questions which I havent gotten a good answer to. Thats why Im taking a holiday from tomorrow to the 19th to see if i can find an answer.

This sem I also made a few good friends I think. There is joyce, who was my faithful prayer partner, and jerome, who is the ultimate freshie (some claim he acts and works like me).

Im glad that my relation with Walrus is getting better (I think). Well, it hasnt reached the stage that I am happy with but at least its a good start. After what happened during genes, I thought she would just slip through my fingers. Am actually looking forward to checking her house out Sunday. Might just want to bring a bottle of wine in to let everyone else enjoy. :D

Am pretty tired actually. will continue updating you guys stuff soon ok? Nights

2009-08-02T19:29:00.002+08:00

Today was supposed to be a normal Sunday. Mass, family lunch, rt and finally GI Joe. But just as mass ending, my Dad got a call. He don't usually pick up calls during mass cause that is really inappropriate but it was really an important call. Uncle David is dead at a tender age of 52. The news caught me at a time when I was to be enjoying my last week of holiday! And for the first time in my life, I'm really found myself at a loss. Uncle David was one of the man I had looked up to as a kid! He was a really nice and gentle man who was always there for me. He was always at my place for visits and CNY. And a large of my nice childhood memories were him giving me toys like my first drum set, my first motor boat and my first stuff toy! This list of deeds he did for me can go on and on and on but I just want to let you guys know how much of a freaking IMPACT this man had on this kid. I'm supposed to be heading a walk with my NUS friends tomorrow and I really dont know how I am supposed to go about smiling tomorrow but I will try to keep my lame game tomorrow. Gabriel, if you ever read this, please nudge me everytime I seem down or seem like Im not there! I have never been strong but I need to be strong not just for myself but for all my freshies and for all the people I really intend to journey with next sem! Peace out guys!

2009-06-17T10:57:00.000+08:00

Its now day 2 of camp. Only managed a couple of hours sleep last 2 nights. Damn tired. But as many of you know, I survive on caffine. This morning I had 5 packets worth of it man. I already feeling super high. And I just want to live high!!

2009-06-16T01:48:00.002+08:00

Hey guys, I know I said that I would not be posting! but im here! myfeiwnd brought her lappy!! haha... ok I got internet access!

2009-06-14T23:43:00.003+08:00

I will not be writing for a couple of days due to FOC commitments guys. I promise the birthday girl to write an entry for her. I decided to write one before I leave. Eh Junie, really sorry could not stay. I need my rest. Haha but actually got to sleep la. Come online, kena hounded liao. Got so many last minute problems. Alamak.

Anyways, I actually got a lot of things to write on your book one, but Bryan need to go off liao. Damn it. I hope you really like the present cause is i choose one lor. Actually is just happen to see in the store! Haha. Won't tell you where I got it la ok. I havent been to a chalet in a long long time. So thanks for bringing me there! Whee. kk, havent pack my bag so I'm going to start now guys. see ou guys soon!

2009-06-13T12:20:00.003+08:00

The more I read her blog, the more I want to kick her. Alamak, I damn concerned can? I am CONCERNED. That's probably why I keep calling her stupid. It's not because she is really stupid but she just puts others before herself. I was not having a good morning but reading her blog made me realised that people around me are also suffering. You know who you are and please please take care of yourself dearest pooh bear! I know you care for giraffe kor kor but your health is more important can? Eh pooh bear, if you are reading this, please take good care of yourself can.

Going to celebrate someone's 21st tomorrow and I think I got a good gift for the person! I'm sure she will love it. Haha! I know you told me not to get you the stuff toys which you totally adore anymore, so I got you something else that is handy and is in the image of the character!

It's 2 days to day 0 and I am really worried for myself too. I need my rest. I am having a sore throat but I'm not saying anything. My parents are nagging me to take care of my health but i don't really care any more. I'm trying to make FOC a success and its my own agenda. The rest can wait.

Going for my first RT session tomorrow. Am worried that they will give me stuff to do liao. Damn it! I pass my NAFFA like twice in my life so I guess rt will become part of my life soon. Sighs.

Anyways going back to my last post. I really like the song. listening to it as I am typing this. Haha. I'm think I can like apply it to so many things and people that I love so much and it really calms me down and stuff like that.Muhahaha.

Anyways, Walrus is coming back from London today. Still waiting for her call. Need to update her on the games for FOC. All my station ics must be zai one. Haha. Must be like me! (I know I thick skinned but oh well what the heck) Seriously I think I might have a problem during FOC. I'm really trying to find myself can. Need my lameness back asap!

All about loving you!

2009-06-12T11:13:00.002+08:00

Listenin to this song reminds me of many things! Happy things and sad things all have. I think this song can be applied to many circumstances lor. Damn meaningful can? If you are reading this, and I hope you get to read this, I meant to have this song dedicated to you la. For the rest of us, lets just enjoy this lyrics ya?

Looking at the pages of my life
Faded memories of me and you
Mistakes you know Ive made a few
I took some shots and fell from time to time
Baby, you were there to pull me through
Weve been around the block a time or two
Im gonna lay it on the line
Ask me how weve come this far
The answers written in my eyes

[chorus:]
Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I dont wanna sleep tonight, dreamins just a waste of time
When I look at what my lifes been comin to
Im all about lovin you

Ive lived, Ive loved, Ive lost, Ive paid some dues, baby
Weve been to hell and back again
Through it all youre always my best friend
For all the words I didnt say and all the things I didnt do
Tonight Im gonna find a way

[chorus:]
Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I dont wanna sleep tonight, dreamins just a waste of time
When I look at what my lifes been comin to
Im all about lovin you

You can take this world away
Youre everything I am
Just read the lines upon my face
Im all about lovin you

[guitar solo]

[chorus:]
Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I dont wanna sleep tonight, dreamins just a waste of time
When I look at what my lifes been comin to
Im all about lovin you

All about lovin you

2009-06-11T12:28:00.002+08:00

I realised I am really depending on the Lord these couple of days more than anything. I have been hiding in the ador room more than anything. I probably impressed Brother Jude, but does he know the reason? I am in real need of God's grace. Alot of problems coming to me for FOC. Thats really easy to settle i know but cumbersome. My real worry: broadrick girl guides. Read Junie's blog a couple days back. They might be closing it down. I don't know if the girls respect me or what not, but this organisation is what I have been part of in the last year. I have seen some of them girls grow(in all sense of the word) especially yi ling and regina. I am really glad that they have grown to be better leaders and stuff. Upon hearing this, I teared. Its partly because I was really tired and was unable to control my emotions but it was mostly because I felt that a part of me was going to be gone. OMG! Girls, I can't do much for you now. It's the school's decision. All I can offer you is my prayers! Hope it will help la, ok. FOC is in a few days! Damn! I'm trying to catch up on my sleep which seems ever impossible. HAHA! So many things to do but so little time. Whatever la. Will try. :D

2009-05-30T14:35:00.002+08:00

Wonder if anyone still bothers to read my entries. Been posting quite abit lately. Been having an internal struggle lately. Havent been shaving and the hair been growing like nuts. I'm been wanting to have the mysterious look for some time now. I promised my Mum I will trim it. Haha. Looks like I have no choice man. Will post a picture if I succeed!

2009-05-29T14:14:00.002+08:00

I'm back. Got my results today. Not too good. Worse results I have received from NUS. Haiz. I feel so down man. What to do? I'm taking one line from the Jordan commercial- love is not quitting your day job. The thing that I think I need most now. You ask me what my day job is. Well, my main day job is just to be me. I hope my face wont be so black later la. I don't know how to face nobody. Haha. Think I have to think of some lame jokes to perk myself up. Will upload the jokes if I think of anything lame. :D.

WOOHOO!!!!

2009-05-27T11:04:00.002+08:00

I have been listening to this song on youtube endlessly these couple of days. Reminds me of myself at times la. Think the lyrics are damn meaningful. Though he is rapping and some people might not like it, but if read through the lyrics, you might just think of it as motivational la. So I'm just leaving these lyrics for you guys to enjoy. Peace!

LOSE YOURSELF LYRICS

Look.. if you had.. one shot, or one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted.. in one moment
Would you capture it.. or just let it slip? Yo..

His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy
There's vomit on his sweater already, mom's spaghetti
He's nervous, but on the surface he looks calm and ready
to drops bombs, but he keeps on forgetting
what he wrote down, the whole crowd goes so loud
He opens his mouth but the words won't come out
He's chokin, how? Everybody's jokin now
The clock's run out, time's up, over - BLAOW!
Snap back to reality, OHH - there goes gravity
OHH - there goes Rabbit, he choked
He's so mad, but he won't
Give up that easy nope, he won't have it
He knows, his whole back's to these ropes
It don't matter, he's dope
He knows that, but he's broke
He's so sad that he knows
when he goes back to this mobile home, that's when it's
back to the lab again, yo, this whole rap shift
He better go capture this moment and hope it don't pass him

[Chorus]
You better - lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go (go)
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime
You better - lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go (go)
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime
You better..

Soul's escaping, through this hole that is gaping
This world is mine for the taking
Make me king, as we move toward a, new world order
A normal life is boring; but superstardom's
close to post-mortem, it only grows harder
Homie grows hotter, he blows it's all over
These hoes is all on him, coast to coast shows
He's known as the Globetrotter
Lonely roads, God only knows
He's grown farther from home, he's no father
He goes home and barely knows his own daughter
But hold your nose cause here goes the cold water
These hoes don't want him no mo', he's cold product
They moved on to the next schmoe who flows
He nose-dove and sold nada, and so the soap opera
is told, it unfolds, I suppose it's old partner
But the beat goes on da-da-dum da-dum da-dah

[Chorus]

[Verse 3]
No more games, I'ma change what you call rage
Tear this motherfuckin roof off like two dogs caged
I was playin in the beginning, the mood all changed
I've been chewed up and spit out and booed off stage
But I kept rhymin and stepped right in the next cypher
Best believe somebody's payin the pied piper
All the pain inside amplified by the
fact that I can't get by with my nine to
five and I can't provide the right type of
life for my family, cause man, these God damn
food stamps don't buy diapers, and there's no movie
There's no Mekhi Phifer, this is my life
And these times are so hard, and it's gettin even harder
Tryin to feed and water my seed plus, teeter-totter
Caught up between bein a father and a primadonna
Baby momma drama screamin on her too much for me to wanna
stay in one spot, another day of monotony
has gotten me to the point, I'm like a snail I've got
to formulate a plot, or end up in jail or shot
Success is my only motherplotting option, failure's not
Mom I love you but this trailer's got to go
I cannot grow old in Salem's Lot
So here I go it's my shot, feet fail me not
This may be the only opportunity that I got

[Chorus]

[Outro]
You can do anything you set your mind to, man

2009-05-23T11:45:00.003+08:00

What's up, fellas? Just came back from retreat last night. A 2 days 1 night event. I think I had the best of chats with Yippy. He gave me the best of advice and set me on a whole new direction. Really appreciated it. Think the retreat was something nice and something of a change. Mel Heng had to remind me that we are 3 weeks away from d day man. Damn! Haha. My target: impact 1 person in the camp. Just one person will do. Come to think of it, I think i need to thank someone here. She is none other then VV(aka LP)! VV was the first one i recruit for my subcomm. First person. She is a person I can totally trust on and put my faith on. Best things I like about her: her generosity and her eagerness. So far she has attended every single one of my damn meetings. Shows you how determined she is to make this work.(or maybe it is just because she got nothing better to do, but of course I would prefer the former)Most importantly, she cn take my rubbish. And guess what: she actually understands about 70-80% of my jokes. How cool is that man! Same wavelength man. It is like with her, I don't even need to explain my damn bloody jokes! Good job vv. Promised you a treat after the camp an I will do it ok? Just need to find a good old Korean resturant! Sighs but I should not think so far la. that is all I have to say for now. Peace!

campfire mc

2009-05-15T13:38:00.002+08:00

OMG, Junie made me campfire mc last night. I'm really flattered about how much she trusts me and stuff, but I can tell you its a big task and I myself am not sure whether i can do the job or not. Sure people might think I have the gift of the gab, but I also know I'm actually a quiet boy boy inside. But ok la, I will just try my best. Had to tell my buddy that we couldn't hold any meetings that period cause of the preparation and stuff. Felt pretty bad actually but I gave him the Stare, so he just said ok. Thank God man. Cause I told myself liao, I can miss everything except campfire and campfire preparation cause I know myself it takes alot of work. And by then it is already day 2 and 3 which technically means Junie and the other YAs only probably slept less than 6 hours for the 2 days combined. Besides, I think she knows that I LOVE campfire, and singing campfire songs. Haha, please dont be surprised if I keep singing just a couple of songs like moonlight bay and pass it on. But i won't be so bad la, still will sing stuff like campfire burning and the yell thingy. Forgot what it is called but I can still yell can. I going to make all the guides cannot tahan me by making them yell it a couple of times in various speeds. I think I got alot of ideas. Just dont know if Junie will let me la.:( Haha. Will see.

2009-05-13T22:22:00.002+08:00

It's the holiday so there is only one thing left to do: have fun! Seems like I am really busy these couple of weeks! I look at my calendar and I am like WOW! Haha! First time in a long long time that my holidays are these packed. And I'm really not whining. I'm really enjoying it. My main event is to do my Freshman Orientation Camp properly and make sure that the games follow well. (since I am in charge of games) Thankful, my co head is very nice and it seems our manpower problem for the subcomm has been solved. All we need to do now is to work. We are going to reece Sentosa on Monday by the way. Something really funny happened though. It was supposed to be a games comm event but at the dim sum lunch with the main comm today, it turns out that this will become a whole comm outing/reece. I'm also looking forward for all the parish outreach. I hope my gift of the gab when it comes to speaking with strangers helps. I am actually really scared when it comes to this part but as usual, I will try lor. But oh cause, there are many other things I want to do also lah. I got a retreat next week, I going to watch the Harlem Globaltrotters with Eugene. ( wanted to ask bkb and xf to come but as usual my taste and their taste different) I starting to feel a little shag after not getting enough sleep and I think its only high time I should go get some sleep, but I don't sleep at this time even when it is term time. Man. One more thing I want to add, I read the same bible passage 3 times in 5 days. I think it is a sign! I will keep it in mind. :) Ok, I think that is it. Good night. Greg out. Peace.

hkalhfsldakjhfsadfja

2009-05-08T10:15:00.003+08:00

I can't believe that I have officially finished my exams a couple of days ago. I can't remember who but I think my friend Gabriel was the one telling me that now that this sem is actually over, I 'm year 2 offically as well! OMG la. I can't believe that a year had already past so fast. You know I have so many emotions running through me right now especially when I think back on this sem. It has also been hard for me to figure what exactly I wanted to do with my life and it was really a struggle for me to sit down at the end of last sem to declare my major first. I thought logically and realistically what was good for me and had just decided to declare economics. And all I can say is through the many bizarre happenings this sem, I realised that I had lived in an idealistic world for the past 5 years roughly. Economics is not all words but using words to describe the numbers. So there you have it I am now a social work major. Of course I did enjoy my social work module this sem as well and I 'm really hoping to get an A for it. (if not my CAP is going down drastically) But besides that, social work, as I have realised, is now my calling. And as mst of you who know me personally, I don't mince my words. I am very realistic about the job and I kinda know what it entails. It involves: long hours, poor pay, low social standing, and is a tough job. It also involves increasing the social functioning of people. That is what I'm looking at but at the same time I am an idealist. It doesn't mean I want to come in and help everybody. I know if I can come in and out of 10, help 2-3 cases successfully, well hey that is good enough for me.

Hello

2009-01-29T19:04:00.002+08:00

I found my inner peace now. Thank HIM!!! I love you and you know it. It has been confirmed. Im a social work major.

What is love?

2009-01-12T18:48:00.002+08:00

What is love?
Love is being at working.
Love is taking the air less traveled.
Love is wearing a new pair everyday.
Love is the buzzer beater.
Love is dropping 69.
Love is your first.
Love is a 3 peat.
Love is realizing when not to quit your day job.
Love is silencing your critics.
Love is olaying on nothing but heart.
Your writing is on the wall, take it and walk away with your head held high and move on.
What is love?
Love is playing every game as if its your last.

Mental toughness

2009-01-09T12:59:00.003+08:00

Mental toughness - something I hold close to my heart. No one said anything was easy. We have to fight for what we want. Even when the world is against you, I say stand and fight. And when you achieved everything, create your own enemies. Set new goals. At any point of time, I think that having an edge is point. Cause this edge is what sets you ticking. I don't think I am there yet. But I will be, or so at least I hope.

Anyways, yesterday's meeting was awesome. The best one we have had so far in UG world. But of cause this was internal. Nevertheless, I said that we would go democratic this year and make sure that the program is both instructor and cadet friendly. (No offense to Hotel Golf but I totally think you are a jerk head)I think the program flows and the instructors mostly have been limited to one major role in the camp. I am looking forward to the fact that the cadets will enjoy this program cause its a fun camp. It really is. I can tell you one thing though. All cadets will be knocked out second day. Plus chop plus guarantee. In fact, I think first day some will knock out already. It is because of the intensity of the program. If I had it my way, the program would be more slack, but oh well the chief wants it his way, so might as well let he be happy. Anyways, chief and I only disagreed about the first day program so it is alright. Guess what? I am no longer ACC. Chief changed my post. It is not a grand post and most cadets would be going to hate me. But I am finally going to be on the grounds. WOOOHOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! My new post is called Chief Warrant Officier. The thing I am heading in the program: cleanup. I was secretly smiling when I heard that. Damn lame la. But my motto which I am going to impart to the kids is: if you want to go home, clean up fast. If you don't want me in your face, make it clean. Cause I'm slack and the school is not my home, so make it presentable and we can all go home. I think this post suit me though. At the meeting yeserday, only one word came to mind: safety (and meal times). I don't know whether it's because I have rubbed off my dad's genes or because I am getting older.( mature) So thumbs up Wei Ren. If you were going to make me f&b i/c again, I would have just laughed and walked out. Whoever is going to be f&b ic this year, good luck at the staff office trying to fill up the milo container. It took me about a good 10 mintutes to get one filled. Nevertheless, if there is one key thing in my mind this year, it is safety. Precaution is the key word. Especially on the events like hiking and campfire, CWO is going to whack all the people who are reckless. That include myself when I am on the road driving. (If im getting the car though and wei ren no way you are going to be my co driver.)But let me put the qualifier here, as much as I would hone on the kids, i think it is going to be easy to get points off me also. I 'm really soft hearted. So peace.

NYNYNY

2009-01-07T16:10:00.002+08:00

Hey there everybody. It's the new year. New start for everyone. For me, I got new targets and goals I want to achieve this year. I don't want to set too high of a goal and neither do I want to set too many goals. So I'm just going to list 5 and see if I can achieve it by January 1st 2010. So here goes. ( In no particular order) I want to achieve a cap of above 4.0. I want to lose weight. I want to be more proactive in the organizations that I am in. I want to more organized. I want to be more approachable. So there you have it. My top 5 goals in the new year. Achievable? I don't know. All I know is that very soon the house is going to be very quiet. Gabs is leaving for the army and Archiechiban is leaving for Aussieland. That makes me the only kid in the house. Technically I am not a kid anymore. But as you all know, in your parents eyes we are all still kidos. I been talking to my Dad about my goals and my aims, and I think seriously I think he is firstly getting very bored about what I have to say but most importantly, he is seeing the maturity in me. Am I damn mature. No. Nevertheless, I think when I usually have a goal I will keep to it and make it sacred. Actually I wanted to post alot of things but my mind is in a mess right now. I got alot of things I want to settle, alot of mini goals to clear. I have to settle SK Mama bday, get ready for my last complete CNY with my family, starting reading up for my next sem, bid for my mods and tutorial slots, prepare to get into lectors' exco, and get ready for UG camp 09. I really excited for the last one though. I am taking over as Assistant Camp Commandant. Its really an honor to work along side this bunch of kids, but really this time round I have to get to know them better. Especially Zhisheng. He is one hell of a quiet guy. I should trash talk him more often. Bring my lame game on. But the most important thing of cause is to let the cadets have a fantastic time. Let them enjoy. Last year was a success in some ways but there is always ways to improve. (right instructors?) I hope this year the girl guides instructors will be back to help. (Especially Junie and SK) Sk, all I want to tell you is that you were by far the best female instructor in last year camp. You were virtually running 4 posts including group i/c, f&b 2 i/c, station i/c and helping out with the campfire. You were totally amazing. If the main comm loses you, I think it will be very hard to replicate the same standard we have set for ourselves last year. Junie, you were taking my current position along with the campfire. The camp was a success in many aspects and I think you knew that. And you also know that a campfire, any campfire for that matter, is the highlight of a camp! I think you are a master of campfire. Wei Ren actually wants me to plan this year's one but I really want to learn from you about how to host one properly. No point sending me to the dungeons right. I am not a guy known to speak serious stuff but there you have it. So please for the love of Greg,hop on board. For the current moment, I have too many ideas zoom in my head and for tomorrow's meet up, I am going to say my 2 cents' worth. This might sound way off but my friend told me I have some weird ideas like I am super strong advocate of special term. In fact, I am planning to do 2 mods this coming special sem 2. Crazy right? It eats into holidays, too expensive, blablabla... But oh what the heck I am on PMS (Papa Mama scholarship). Officially I been telling people I want to slack but the real reason is that by doing special term, it means you can technically do less mods at the normal sem. It means that the chances for me to burnout lowers and I can do better right? Makes sense what. Why don't you guys ever listen to my advice. Haha. Well this should be all the crap I have to say today. TO Sierra Whiskey, keep fighting. I will be rooting for you. Whiskey Whiskey, I just don't know what to say to you anymore.

Hello

2008-12-23T00:24:00.002+08:00

I see you by the seaside
Staring at the moon
Sipping on your cans of beer
Striking tears by your ears
Noone there beside you
Noone is there to care
Noone said it was easy
To feel so alone
today felt like the end of time
Tomorrow feels the same
When your world comes crashing down
With noone beside you
When even the shadows mock you
I promise I will be there for you
I know we are all broken people
In this shattered world we live in
But we got to count our blessings
Be it that small
By God's grace we are all healed
And called to be one
So let us come to you

Gregory "giraffe" Li

Your post

2008-12-21T23:44:00.004+08:00

I know you are hurting inside
The cause I still don't know
I been trying to call out to you
But you ain't listening no more
At times I told myself why bother
Nevertheless the nagging feeling is still there
To let you know that I care
I just want to let you know
That we all got problems
But how we handle them
Determines what kind of man we are
Never go down without a fight
Like I know you could
No problem is too big to handle
No fight you can't win
My heart aches seeing you like that
Open your heart to those around you
Let us lighten the load
I can't promise you we got all the answers
But at least we will lend you our listening ear
To see you smile again
Would really lighten my load
I ain't know if you are reading this
But if you do
This post is dedicated to you
From the bottom of my heart
Cause that is where I keep my friends like you

-Gregory "giraffe" Li

bleah

2008-12-20T12:21:00.002+08:00

I am shrouded in doubts
Doubts that come from all areas in my life
Questions that I can't answer myself
Questions that set me thinking
About the purpose of life
I want to beg the Lord
What do you want from me
I think there is a higher purpose
But what is it
What is life in its essence
What am I called for
Am what I am doing on the right track
But my main worry now is you girl
You and your mood swings
Starting to scare me
I want to let you know so bad
That I can be a big brother to you
But you got to let me
You can lean on me
Tell me everything
Like you never did
Call out my name and I will be there
I ain't have no answers
But like I told that day
I see the potential in you
We are so damn similar in all dimensions
I ain't want to see you being poured into this endless pit
Come on girl
Let me walk with you
Til the end of time
I hope you are reading you
Cause Erzi care ok
You know who you are

-gregory "erzi" "giraffe" li
-p.s: I m really sorry my name has become a mouthful

hols

2008-12-20T12:07:00.002+08:00

Ok, i know i haven't been blogging much this holiday. I know the holidays are going to end so I should at least write an entry before its all to late and it will be next year already. Why am I blogging so early? Well its not that early but at least I'm here as early as I could. I just caught the best nba game I had in months. Why you might ask. Hmmm, I think what my dad said is right. I think I have matured in this area. I used to watch basketball aimlessly. I watched every single game that I could and especially if my favorite team was on. If you know me back then, you would know I would be talking basketball 24/7. But I have come to a whole new level. I now watch the games with 2 conditions. First, I watch with no biases. Meaning to say, I don't really care about the teams on. Partly its also because teams nowadays trade players like no ones business, so much so that I'm sometimes like 'huh, why is he here?' or 'he from so and so team one mah?'. And partly because, I just want to watch some good basketball. That's all. Which leads me to my second point. I really like close games. No point watching blowouts. No contest. I mean you will see the coaches sending in their second teams which makes it seem like a practice game instead. I mean its good to give these players some quality playing time but I don't think you should play them all at the same time and I don't think it is fair to the people who paid to watch a game to see such a game. Even in a blowout, I would like to see a fighting team and not one who thinks its just a practice game. Yap yap, this is my 2 cents worth. Peace out!!

Stress!!

2008-11-28T17:36:00.003+08:00

The exams ain't over til next Tuesday but it feels so eternal. I already done with English and econs. And don't ask me about the papers cause I will try to avoid the question. Its all over. The one sentence that kept popping in my head today was "we just made sure we ain't getting beat." ( Larry Bird)I got 2 more papers and I'm just going to make sure I am not going to get beat no matter what. I'm all hyped already. Thanks mama and Junie for being with me all this time. Could not have gone through this without the both of you. I need the "championship mentality". One paper at a time.

hmmm poetic greg

2008-10-29T16:51:00.003+08:00

Now that the dust has gone
And the sky is clear once again
The path ahead splits to 2
Whatever direction I take seems unwise
Noone to guide me
Noone that can
Cause this is the course I chose to take
The only one that is left
Misery I seek not
Despair I want not
Waiting for life to turn full circle is all I want
Tell me Lord which path is right
This ain't time to run away
This ain't time to hide away
With vigor I will choose my way
Til death do I part
My friends I bid you guys farewell

Purity of tradition

2008-10-15T19:37:00.003+08:00

I knew Uncle Greg hasn't been feeling too well. He feeling the aches and pains of school and he knows himself that he ought to be happy but he ain't happy. I think I am in an identity crisis. ( well I have through too many of these crap the last couple of months) Thanks Sheena anyways for the comforting yesterday. But I got to find Greg my way and on my terms. I got to be like the 84-85 Celtics.(I think!!) I got to put my heart on my sleeve. I got to play with the passion of the underdog and purity of tradition. I got to find the never quit attitude. And I got to be the bigger man. Ask me why I am vexed!!! I don't know why. Partly its because of Bravo Echo Golf and partly because I am trying to be the best that I can be. I am surprised I got 31 for econs when I was totally shagged that test day. I drank 2 large cups of caffeine and it still didn't work. I was doing the exam like a man without his heart. But I scrapped. And my confidence is up a little bit. Remember Greg, chin up always. Noone can take Greg away from you. You define Greg. And please people. I'm just ranting. I will be fine. I have been sleeping properly. Probably that has led to my crappiness a little bit. But I'm fine. Never say that I am a quitter. My father was actually telling me about my o level days.I think he was trying to bring back so of the Greg tradition from way back. I think that works but not today Dad. I will call upon this tradition when I need it. Thanks for reminding me though. We all love Greg!! Or at least I know I do. I don't remember where I heard this from but a great man is one who looks at his strengths only and never looks at his weakness, cause if he does, he will live in desperate.

6th gear

2008-10-09T18:55:00.002+08:00

I should be doing my readings but oh well what the heck right. I got 2 assignments due in weeks to come. But I'm here to make a point that I wanted to make a long time ago. I long wanted to say a man is judged by his actions. Well judging by my standards I'm not much of a man anyways. I think my father's decision to keep me grounded here is right. Chris da jie words of wisdom is true also. I'm just not emotionally strong now to be overseas by myself. I see the point ya. However, I do feel the test of a man is not judged through good times but through tough times. I haven't been through that though. As most of friends could testify, I'm still as lame as ever. That is true. I won't take that away. It's the image I been showing of myself to others.Nevertheless, that is partly because I don't really like to show my problems to others. I have a dozen of those and noone knows except me. I don't usually share but if I do want, I would. Why you must ask. Well, its partly because of my belief that we should not pour our problems to others. If i die someday and its because of heart disease I will know why. It's because I don't share. All I want now is that at my funeral, someone will say' "This was the epitome of a great man. A man of many unnecessary words but when the time comes he dished out words of wisdom." I always and still feel of myself that way. I can advice people and tell them what needs to be done. I think I'm strong in my beliefs in certain areas like education and the values of life. Not that I like to see streams of people coming to me, but its just that I like to be asked of my opinions. Recently, my friend was really worried about the econs mid term. I think it was largely because of the fact that they all want their cap of 5. I told him"Look bro, we know where we come from, and the fact that we are here is already a miracle.We are seriously competing with the cream of the crop. The elite of Singapore and overseas. We should aim to get our 3.5 first before anything. Do that and if we get anything above a B, we would be leading a happier life. That was my philosophy in NUS anyways." I feel and still feel that I am inferior in certain ways. To be in Dean's list all 8 sems is a thing I can only dream of. I think I have the skills needed to survive in NUS but not to do well. I met an old friend Tuesday. Had a chat with her. She told me she thinks I lost my flame. The old Greg she knows is gone. Well, its probably the glitter in my eyes. The old confidence and sweet arrogance I used to possess is all gone. Am I worried? Nah. Its just a phase. People around me don't know and can't see cause I have been putting up a freaking front but it's ok. The old Greg is and forever will remain in my heart. I hate it when people tell me to mature. I am mature just that I don't show it cause I don't see the need. And I'm personally telling this to Weni here. Don't judge me when you ain't see the fighter I am inside and how I take pride in the fact that I am now in NUS. I fought to get here. Did you guys see me cry when I almost could not make it here. Mr Goh, my primary school tutor, told me I am not as competitive as my siblings. It is not that I am not competitive, and I swear I am, but it is just like I said it I don't put it on my face. Secretly I also want to be on Dean's list. Secretly I want my CAP to be 5. Is that possible? No. It does not harming trying though. Just like Larry, I still believe that with my brains, that is nothing I can't do in the classroom. Just that I don't like it when it gets too technically la. That should be enough ranting for today. Guys, no hard feelings alright. Remember guys, the difference between a loser and a winner is that a winner can find a 6th gear.

the 'Jason Williams' issue

2008-10-08T19:26:00.003+08:00

Jason Williams retired towards the end of last month. That was one of the darkest days of my life. Jason was one of the few players I was planning to watch this season. Though he was about to don on a new jersey but he was a key inspiration for yours truly. I was so waiting for December when the papers finally ended so that I could finally sit down every Friday and Saturday morning to watch whatever games they threw at me. I was really hoping to see the new Clippers team la. But of course this season, I would be putting all my money on the 76ers to go post season and I am really hoping for them to go past the first round la. Anyways, Jason Williams was one the rare points that I could honestly say that I grew up with up. I watched him in his Kings days til he finally won his first and only title( I think!!) with Miami. He was not the atypical point I would say. He had his own favour and he played his game his own way so that was the reason I really admired him. He was really flash in the beginning as you can see in the nike ads and stuff but he toned down and I think he really matured towards the end of his decade long career. He was not the elite point with the spotlight on points like Kidd, Arenas, Nash and Williams(Jazz player and not him), but he was always a weapon and got carry a team on his shoulders when need be. Just look at him in the Grizzles days la. He was the floor leader. Hmm the greatest moment I remembered of him was one of the grizzles games la when he was supposed to throw a lob from out of bounds which ended up to be a 3 point shot la. It was like he just shrugged and I was like 'what the'. Anyways, Jason I wish you all the best in whatever endeavors you choose to do. You will really be missed somehow someway and you will have a place here. You probably don;t have a place in my all nba team but you are are always a legend to me. Many thanks fotr the memories. Jason Williams career-rip!

Greg is back in the building!!!!

2008-09-17T10:01:00.003+08:00

I haven't been posting lately. Why? I also don't know so don't ask me. Hmmm I just realised something you can try to change greg but you can't actually take the greg out of the greg. Only greg can modify greg and that is if only greg wants to change. Mid term break is coming to town next week. And the mid term exams are after that so the break is better known as 'you better study or else you will fail.' It bothers me that I am behind in my readings. It really starts to seem that I am getting the stupid vios next sem. Does it excite me? Yes. I can now go home in comfort and so if anyone who lives near me now can now register to get free car ride from me. but please can you guys at least come kembangan mrt so it is easier for me per se. But it also means no free car rides from dad early in the mornings and I have to be responsible for not only myself but also the car. Darn it. Like I always say greg thinks too much. You want to know what I said a couple of weeks back. Well here goes. If i ever have kids, they must come in pairs. Why cause I want to pair them up so that they would be lonely. And I want to make sure that their age gap no too different so they feel comfortable with one another. But wait I don't even have a gf. So I am thinking too much. Haha!!! My sister says I have weird taste cause she asked me to pass her sloman book to her chio friend but I don't even think she is that bit chio la. Must be because I am girls with more meat.(ie chubby girls)

PS: chubby does not equal to fat. Woohoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

for u

2008-08-29T23:36:00.003+08:00

I have been thinking of you since that moment
I have been so lost in transition ever since
You took my breath away
Like noone else quite did before
I miss your sweet laughter
Seems like I can still hear it from miles away
Noone knows this but just me
I never felt so strongly before
All I want from you now is for you to paint my love
Paint it with the colours of the rainbow
So my love will never be grey again
Take me to the promise land
Far far away
So I will never feel pain again
Never feel pain again

my new song

2008-08-28T22:50:00.002+08:00

Nothing can replicate that night
I felt something
A spark or a connection
Whatever you want to call it
Its something I can't describe
Its way beyond words
I can't believe I have been so foolish
I just left it out there in the darn rain
Not realising what I will miss
Cause all I have left is a mentally image of you
Yet this is never enough
I have been praying to see you again
And this time I am not to let it away
Not going to let you slip through my fingers
So please tell you felt something
I don't like to beat round the bush
Cause I have been there before
And it caused my heart to hurt real bad
Now that the reason it's healed again
Not I not going to let you go
So baby please tell me you felt it too
Cause those 3 words ain't enough.

EMO EMO

2008-08-23T00:06:00.002+08:00

I think last couple of post or almost all of my post are all emo. It is not that I want to be emo or I like to be emo but its just part of me. I mean most of you guys see me always laughing joking around all the time but is that really the real greg? I myself also don't know. I feel like greg, I think like greg but I don't feel the joy that I think greg should be having. SK mama, I think you say it best when you tell me that you think I have problems but I also can't pinpoint it out. I think I really also don't know lor. But sometimes I know just a little bit but I just don't know how to put it across. Its hard to maintain my bubbly image i tell you. But ok la. I just keep telling myself must be positive. I keep watching and replaying the Larry Bird DVD. It just brightens up my day. I have to be involved in some carnival tomorrow sia. Hope it is going to be funny. But good thing is can see fireworks. Haha. So I really hope I can enjoy myself la. But I don't want to do the reflection paper. Drats!!

Play with my heart on my sleeve

2008-08-19T23:37:00.002+08:00

Play with my heart on your sleeve. I coin the term from my Larry Bird DVD. I offically started school this week although I am no longer a fresh freshie. But seriously i got no mood to study.I look at the work piling up an I say better do something. I will do soon I hope. So GOD please help me out ya. I need to play with my heart on my sleeve. Always. Noone can help me except myself. Boy I better start to work. Haiz.

2008-08-12T22:38:00.002+08:00

Ok I m officially an NUS student. Is that good? Im not too sure. What I can say is I kinda lost all the zest I originally had for st. The school seriously overcrowded sia! Everywhere u go u see ppl. Even getting a lunch spot is difficult. Just realise i have alot of reading. damn sian!!! I hate reading! Wait I dun hate reading! I hate reading stuff that I will be tested on. God save me!!!!!ahhhhh!!!!

im bored

2008-06-28T13:06:00.002+08:00

I am not in the mood to anything these days. I don't know why. Actually I don't want to know also. Sometimes its not good to know too much. I wonder what will life be like if I was someone else. But I guess I enjoy my own life best. LOL! 21 years of existence. Hmmm I don't think I have met with any major difficulties or loss yet. It has been smooth sailing. But I guess as humans we always think that the pasture is greener on the other side. But if we look in the news and we see the sufferings in the world, we will naturally change our minds. Ok!! The thought of the day: Appreciate what you have, enjoy each day like its your last, and never give up! Can that be done? No. But hell we can try!!!

Hello st2

2008-06-26T18:27:00.004+08:00

There goes my first week of special term 2. I look at people enjoying arts camp, I feel damn pissed cos they enjoying but I'm suffering. Well haven't suffer yet la. And not really suffer. Well the benefit is that next term I can take less modules lor. I see my friends either want to take the full five modules or want to overload with 6 modules, I am like 'wah, you guys siao ah.' I look at my readings for the modules, and if i multiply that by 5, my next question is 'how to tahan.' But I guess can tahan if I want to la. Anyways, I met new friends at ug camp. Been hanging out with some of them more recently. BBQ last Friday with the ncc guys. It was fun although it was an all guy turnout and we overbought cause it was a poor turnout. Yap, we talked cock like nobody's business la. Jokes around. The only thing missing: a cold cold beer. But they all kids I'm the only oldie there so I guess no beer? Sunday went zoo with the guides. Woohoo!!! Hmm what can I say? I haven't been to the zoo in a thousand years. So ok la. I always say its the company not the place. We went to eat Pizza Hut at night. Met up with Shu Fang there also la. Quite cool cause never see her for a long time liao. Well not that long lor. Saw her last at my 21st. Then Tuesday went to Junie house to celebrate her 20th. The funny thing was that Junie's mama thought I was SK's BF!!!! Where can??? Haha!! Not that I don't like her but we look like we are together mah?? I just like to tease her only mah!! I think she has the motherly figure so I call her 'mama' lor. Like this also wrong ma? Haha. Anyways I want to thank Junie for inviting me la. It was fun la. You guys should check out the video we made, it was damn funny la. I don;t mind watching it a thousand times la. I think I will still laugh at it at the end of the thousand time la. That is how funny it is. What I can say now, this sem seems more fun than the last. Hmmm I hope the grades get better also. Ok that should be all. Bye!!!

feel my pain

2008-06-21T01:19:00.002+08:00

Hey guys! I am done with the stupid first special term liao... Next week start the 2nd term... As you can tell, I have only one weekend of break. I am so damn sianz la. Today went for a bbq with some of the NCC guys from the brd ug camp. So much food cos the turnout was supposed to be a lot but it turns out tt only the ncc guys, wei ren and me turn up. Shit sia. Tot desiree,my "mama" and pooh bear will turn out. But an all guy turn out is just as good. Sianz... Now waiting for my st results to come out. I am not expecting anything good to turn out. What to do. If i could turn back time, I would choose not to do it lor. Nxt term doing ps. Hmmm nvr do before, so i am not expecting shit out of anything la. Wish me luck ok. Actually i hate exams, I always had this stupid tingling feeling. dun know how to explain. oh well wat the heck... anyways, these days i feel tt something is missing in my life. dun know wat.maybe its a calling for a gf. but i just dun know la hor.so anyways, i packed this weekend so i am gg to enjoy it la. wish me all the best ya. love u guys

mini me

2008-05-30T16:27:00.002+08:00

I am being hot tempered these days. Don't know why lei? Haiz... I still stuck with page 3 and 1/2 with my term paper. On top of that I don't even know if i m going in the right direction. I need some guidance... Should probably start sending the paper to professor... Haha!!! I'm seriously highly stress... Xf tells me relax la. But how to relax? 1st term, 1st module can't lead to the 1st screw up... Sorry to my homie boys... Been staying home these days. Not that I ain't want to go out but I want to S-T-U-D-Y. I do take my breaks but they are kinda of intervals la. So that is why I can't make time. AHHHHHHHH. Next week bidding for my next module, so ya damn. HAHA!!! Like I told my sister, when life hands you lemons, make lemonade. So looks like my thirst is quenched!(ok thats lame, but oh well....)

ahldjfhlhfkjf

2008-05-27T21:38:00.002+08:00

No summon!!! Good. No demerit points to my name. Yes. Ok! Goodness gracious... I now need to write a 6-8 page paper. And I don't know where to begin la. God please help me. I got no where else to go. I still have 4 more years to go. And if i get killed by 1st module tell me how to endure 8 more sem????? AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! I hate being a freshman. Ad i thought it was going to be fun la. Oh well!!! What to do?? Now I got all my frustrations out, I guess I feel much better. Bye.

school starts issue

2008-05-21T17:17:00.002+08:00

Hmm I have started school for 2 weeks already. To me, it is probably a whole new experience. First of all, its a whole new game and a whole new environment. It is not that I don't really like it but I really feel like I not just used to it yet. I am also quite pissed that they actually don't have a rns orientation. Why you might ask? Cause for now I only know a couple of places like the arts faculty and the central library area. Even then, I don't really know the short cuts and stuff as the school is just too big. I am not like expecting anything big as well you know. Probably some half day event just to get you familiar with the new surroundings. But oh what the hack right. Just bare with it for a couple of months and wait for the main one. Went back to serve as an instructor for the combined uniform group camp last weekend. Was pretty fun. I was probably the worst f&b i/c la. What to do? My 2 i/c was not even there half the time. Had to do stuff mostly by myself. My job was like back the limelight. So not many people will appreciate. Was also made the designated safety vehicle driver la. This was stressful and fun at the same time. Ask wei ren la. We did some many stupid thing on the road la. Cutting lanes and stuff. Hmm don't know if I have broke any laws or not la. Hope not la.

hey

2008-05-07T16:27:00.002+08:00

What's up people? I'm back with a vengeance. Guess what? I am so starting university next week. Hai. There goes my one month of slack period. Jon, my main man, asks me why i did this to torture myself since I had a choice to start school in July. I really don't understand myself sometimes. But I figured what the hell right. Sometimes in life we make a choice and we stick with it. I ain't afraid. The only thing I'm afraid with is the there are only nsfs(oops its nsmen now)with me. No eyecandy. Can't concentrate liao. Haha. Never mind. I'm here not to play but to do well enough. I want to be up there all the way. All these time I was living with doubters. People who ain't believe. Now that I am NUS undergrad, ain't noone to stop me. I will have to do what I have to do. I am pretty interested with the NUS and UNC joint programme. Thats means I have to major in 1 of their 5 majors they made available. So mafan!! Don't have the one I want sia. But they do offer my second choice, so I guess I'm taking econs.

woohoo

2008-01-21T20:18:00.000+08:00

Woohoo!!!! Saturday was so fun la... I thought it was a drinking session but it turned out to be karaoke session. All of my old friends were there. But of course, there were drinks. Tiger was the main drink cause it was at Chevrons. Can't imagine my life without my homie boys. Went back to work today. Still damn bored. Haha!!! Alex did not give me any work again. I don't really like working for free. I am a freaking workaholic. HAHA!!! I ended up writing a poem. Its downstairs in my bag now so I won't for the time being put up the poem. I will load it up some time some. Talk to guys soon. Bye!!

Haiz

2008-01-18T22:59:00.000+08:00

I heard that next week my big boss, Dave, will not be in. In fact all the managers will be out of town. I heard that they will be going to Sydney. Cool right. Means no more law. Alex is a little worried though. He has to make all decisions by himself. Don't really know if it will affect me lor. He still does not want to teach me stuff. I whole day stone in the office makes me weary and tired. Don't know why lei? My coworker Michelle says that I am a weird child. OMG lei. Alex says it because I am doing nothing and plus the 'good' environment, it just makes you sleepy. I thought the latter made sense. Tomorrow going to celebrate Boon Tiong and Caleb ord party sia. Going to drink again. Hope I won't get drunk. Make the ord people drunk bah!!! But get to see old friends again. I very the shiok lor. Miss them so much. Ok lah, that should be it for today. Good night.

the ot issue

2008-01-17T22:37:00.000+08:00

Today I worked ot. The good thing about this ot is that after 8.30 I can take a cab home. In fact, I can even call for the cab. Shiok right. Employee benefits wor. I like that wor. LOL. I feel bad cause I am only like a temporary staff but luckily for the company I stay near. 5 minutes reach home already. Today the taxi cost 12 bucks. Ex right. If I were to forge out on my own, I think I better take the public transport liao wor. Haiz. Still today I got very little to do. Alex like so f***ing busy to teach me anything lor. It is so sad. I very willing to learn the ropes. I know I am a newbie in the transportation industry but I really REALLY want to learn some stuff. One of my colleges there is going to like reservist next week. Sianz. Don't really know when is my turn. I hope they forget about me. So fast 1 month past already. I want to start to exercise one. However everything got the heart but no mood lei. Need someone to push me like in BMT like that. Hope XF becomes pti. Then he can push me. He now very very fit after going to SISPEC. I hope all goes well for my buddy. I dont want to see him injured. It will pain m heart lor. I wish him all the best. Go for the 3 stripes. Don't be like me!!! I think I am a loser. LOL!! Peace.

the job issue

2008-01-15T21:28:00.000+08:00

As the title suggest and if u have been reading, I have finally found a job. I am now working as a admin cum logistics assistant at Thales Aerospace Asia. The company is not too far from home but because I have to transfer bus, it makes it cumbersome man. Nevertheless, the people in the office are very nice people. My direct supervisor is Alex and I guess I will be helping him out over the next 3 months. Haha. Unfortunate for me he is a cockster but in a good way la. The thing I dread going to work everyday is that the cockster never give me work. So half the time I am rotting away like the way I was rotting at home. I think I am stoning away lke half the time. Anyways, there are alot of pretty ladies in the company. Whoa eye candy everywhere. However, they are a little too old for me. What a waste right. To think I am still searching for my special one. I am so bored at work most times cause I got nothing to do. Bk says that it is good cause I am getting free dough. Well the main purpose for me to take up this position is to get working experience. I want to learn something while I am here. Probably also as BK puts it I am a f***ing workaholic. I need work. I crave work. I want to work up the ladder. LOL. Haiz... I hope I get more work in the coming days. Or else I will cry. Haha!! Peace out!

My humble apologies

2008-01-03T22:46:00.000+08:00

I did something today that would only make myself proud. I apologize to a person that I should have done years ago. I feel really embarrassed and childish when I think back about what I did. But hey it was in the past and I was still a kid alright.( Not to say I don't act like one now)I guess its one of the reasons why I don't have a girlfriend right now. I pretty old now and I still won't dare to go up to her in church and apologize. OMG right? It probably sums up how I act around them. Few girls have seen the true side of me. Those that have seen and pretty much have a good feeling are taken or out of my reach.(you girls know who you are.)I am just pretty tired about life in general right now. Some how I lost all my beliefs. I lost the Gregness. But I still trying to find the inner Greg and modify him. And by jolly, I think this act today I think is a good step but I wonder why she have not answer my sms huh?

The Jobless Issue

2007-12-29T13:50:00.000+08:00

Is it so hard to get a job in Singapore? Or is it my expectations? Or am I am looking for it in the wrong field? OMG!!! I guess it is easier to find a job in the sales department but I ain't going to find a job there man. Why? Cause I don't think that suit the field man. I can't keep a smiling face all day round and tend to customers. That is so not my style. I need a cubicle to do admin where I have experience in the army mah. Do something I did before is so much better. Sianz. Haha!!! I getting bored by the day. All day all night. I never ever felt so bored. I going nuts!!! I am acting nuts. I think I want to change my personality! To go out and be more proactive with everyone. But I don't know where to start. Haiz. The Greg is killing himself. Hmmm... I need a life. Broadrick does not even know whether they need relief teachers. Isn't that strange. School starts next week lor hor. Quite the stupid right. That should be all my complaints for today bah. Maybe will blog again later. Peace!

the nuts issue

2007-12-20T12:01:00.001+08:00

I been acting more nuts than usual. Don't ask me why. Cause I can't give you a definite answer. I'm just probably feeling emptier than usual. I really don't know. I probably need to get a proper job right now. Read a proper job!!! I want to learn some things. I was hoping to get some admin job. It totally suits me. I especially enjoy answering the phone. Damian says that an interesting way of answering it. Haha. It wasn't intentionally but it is the way I want to answer it. Well I think its time for someone to complete me. I know, I know. I should not openly declare it but I want to. I looking for someone to spend all my time with. But as usual, Singaporeans girls are not too easy to please. And I don't know where to start. So I'm really feeling lost. OMG. Haiz. I guess I can't sit back on this right? AHHHHHHHHHH................... I don't know la. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MIA

2007-12-06T20:18:00.000+08:00

Been ages since I actually sat down and last blogged. So much has been happening over the past weeks. I had an enjoyable trip to Taiwan a couple of weeks back. Went there with a couple of ord personals. It was fun as hell mates. First time to Taipei though. Wished I could extend the trip. Got myself a Air Jordan 1. OMG!! Do you guys know what that means to me?? I have been a fan of the MJ series like forever. And get a pair of AJ1 is like getting a pair of history. Its probably the only AJ I fancy anyways. Should have got another pair. Drats. I told my friend if I were to see another pair I would buy it off the shelf immediately. Also got myself a ss2g pair of sneakers. Will be using it for gaming purposes. But if I could I would buy another cause I like the design despite it being another ordinary part of sneakers. Haha we will see how. I also bought alot of barang barang. Now that I am back I don't see why I bought so much stuff man. Now that I finally get my pink ic back, I got nothing more to do for the next few months. Feel like getting some full time job to just pass the time. I also feel like pick up a new skill like learning malay. I think my chinese cannot make it so I need a third language. We will also see how it goes from here ya. Good night!!

Life as it is

2007-10-20T16:04:00.000+08:00

Have not been blogging much. It's mainly due to the fact that I got nothing much to write on. Life to me is being duller by the day. To think that I will be having a new life after December really bores me out totally. Part of me wants to stay at where i am and part of me wants to leave. So I don't really know whether thats good or bad. I am seriously being lazier too. I sleep like a log for hours. Its like something sapped the energy out of me. Haiz. Only thing to look forward to. My Taiwan trip next month. I hope it would do me some good. I need a change of scenery man. Been kept here too long. Need to take a break.Yap. will be meeting up with the guys later. Celebrating Mel's bday man. Finally get to see Weni after months. God. I miss her so. Not that I love her. Just that I miss her crap. Good crap. She is my arguing partner you know. I don't know what life will be without her. Yap... Hope I can crap later. Thats about it for today. Out.

Engelbert's concert

2007-08-29T23:19:00.000+08:00

I totally enjoyed myself at the Engelbert concert. The guy's voice is so darn good even though he is like aged 71. My mum and I totally agreed that listening to him live beats listening to him in the car any day. I wished I could turn back time man. Haiz... I totally want to thank my Dad for buying the tickets cos he is the sole bread winner now since my mum has retired liao. God I have slightly about 3 months left in the army and I still don't know what to do with my life. Shit... I thought about my opinions and well I hope it will work... So anyways its kinda late now so I think I will be turning in now. :)

Pai Seh

2007-08-23T14:06:00.001+08:00

I just realised on last Saturday that the concert was on this coming Saturday. Haha... How silly of me! Haiz wasted my day lazing around... God! Sianz... Should have asked earlier man.

Engelbert's concert

2007-08-16T22:57:00.000+08:00

I will be attending Engelbert's concert this Saturday. Haha! I know what you guys are thinking. My generation mah? He like so old can. It just so happened that my mum has his album in her car and i have been listening to it. I think he has a nice voice and I go nuts for love songs if you guys don't know that yet. Actually I was pretty hesitant to go buy the tickets cause I was afraid that I was the only young man there that night. Will be quite funny right. Out of place feeling. Anyways I hope it will take away the blues that I have been in for the week or so. You ask me why I feeling like that. Honestly, I also don't know. If I know, of course I will share. That will be al for tonight. Good night.

Question

2007-08-11T22:05:00.000+08:00

I haven't been blogging lately. Been pretty lazy to do so. Anyways, I want to ask a very important question. When you choose a job, what is more important. The money or the satisfaction. Cause it seems to me alot of youngsters are choosing like what they like to do. You can see this through the vast amount of people taking mass comm. I am not saying it is a bad industry to be in. I mean all industries are good and there is always opportunity for growth but what I am trying to say is that people are choosing based on what they like. For me, I am also at a lost. I am going into NUS next year and I don't really have an idea what I really want to yet. I would like to economics and maybe social work. Economics I heard is pretty competitive. Haha. When my friend told me that, I laughed. Why? Cause, it is typical Singaporean. Run away if it is tough. Social work I abit worried because next time pay not so good. Then again, I should laugh again. Cause it is typical Singaporean again. Why? Run away if the job is long hours and has low pay. Another area which I had considered is teaching. My inspiration? Mrs Radha of course. Cher if you reading this, I absolutely respect you. You gave me so much fun in the class room. I know I have long graduated but it won't take away all the valuable lessons I have learnt from you. So this is the 3 main areas I am looking into. Next year I will try to do some relief teaching. I will try going back to Broadrick to teach. Wish me all the best yea. Peace!

Happiness

2007-07-17T22:39:00.000+08:00

Today one of my friends reminded me that we should always try to remember to be happy regardless of what situations we are in. She said that if we are happy, life will be more blissful. I think that is quite true right. I think that most of the time why we are so moody is because we think of the bad side of life and not really think of what God has already given us thus far. Of course, as humans we always demand more out of life. We want more and better stuff. We are hardly satisfied. In a way it helps us progress as a society but it also makes us greedy which is a drawback. I will try to keep this theory in mind. Thanks bud.

emptiness

2007-07-12T18:13:00.000+08:00

I feel this unquenchable emptiness within me. For what reason you may ask? I myself do not know. It just that I feel that I do not have the same passion I used to have like my younger days. I feel like s**t. And that is not good. I think it is partly cause I do not have a purpose currently. I used to have something to look forward to. I used to have a drive. My God. Maybe probably I know more now so I kinda like lost my child-like mentality. Haiz. I just so want to be NUS now. I mean ya I know when I am there I will still like complaining but at least I am doing something. Why?? I am just so damn frustrated. I just need someone to talk to. My God. then again, I should not be complaining. I am so looking forward to the trips at the end of the year. Yeah. That should be my goal. So it probably aint that bad. Haiz.

Motivation

2007-07-10T22:15:00.000+08:00

Motivation is all about the heart and the determination. It is always easier said than done. Everyone has been there before. They want something so bad that they are willing to try or do anything. Nevertheless, not all the times we are able to come up with a solution. But what is heart and what is determination to me? Heart is to know that the situation will be tough but one is willing to fight it with all he has got whereas determination is the willingness to go the extra mile through all difficulties and pain. I have been lucky. I don't really to have to feel motivated throughout my life. I got a good family, good friends and I am doing ok so far. I have no real problems in life. I wonder what will happen to me when I finally meet my first test in life. Will I just run away? Will I stay and fight? That I really do not know. But I really pray that when that the day comes, I will fight it with all the vigor that I can muster. I pray that I will not flutter. I hope that I will pick myself under all circumstances. Life can be so painful sometimes. Let's just hope it doesn't get worse ya. Peace.

Tiredness

2007-07-04T12:21:00.000+08:00

These days I been feeling really tired. Is there a scientific reason or is it just me? Could it be because of the high fever I suffered last week or is it because of sleep deprivation I have been imposing on myself. Last few days I have been saying for more than 9++ hours... Haiz... Sian... Its just so not like me lor. I hope there is nothing wrong with me. Peace out.

Sweep

2007-06-22T21:01:00.000+08:00

It was just as I expected. A clean sweep. Spurs win. In your face, I so told you so. Of course , I did not really enjoy the series. I expected the win but the way it came was too fast. I mean this is the NBA Finals we are talking about. The two "best" teams in the league. Yet the cavs could not even register a single victory. The series was so loop-sided. I mean I wanted some sort of close fight. I like the score being something like 4-2 or 4-3. A clean sweep? Yikes. Totally wasted. I guess that from this series at least Mr Lebron can take some deep playoff experience. That can be the only good thing that can come out of the series for the cavs. Anyways, let take out the champagne and relax spurs.

Horry got his seventh ring. Oh my. All came as a player. I feel that he deserves it lor. He may be a major player but he does all the little things that coaches love. I think all teams would want somebody like him. Can score, board, take charges ad hit those big shots. What more can you ask from a man! Haha, all I can say is Horry please please do not just retire. Play like for one or two more years. I am so looking forward to seeing you next season

When the Spurs come parading to town, where will you be?

2007-06-09T17:50:00.000+08:00

First of all, I am utterly disgusted that the Pistons lost all of their final 4 games after building an early lead. I was hoping for a perfert final between the Pistons and the Spurs. Their were the teams I had believed deserved the spot. But of course, nothing is expected. So move on Cavaliers.

I now totally now believe that the Spurs will win the title this year. The Spurs have too much spark and swagger around them to lose the series. They were carefully built over a number years together with a winning coach, Gregg Popovich. The Spurs built a winning team and just added a couple of fresh legs each year.

Whilst the Cavaliers were built only recently and do well when their superstar, Lebron James, is in the zone.

Both teams have deep benches but I believe that the Spurs bench is deeper because of their playoff experience. Now people can argue that the Spurs bench is old and ageing but I think because they are older does not nessary mean they are worse off. I believe its better because as older athletes, they would know and are expected to know how to maintain their bodies better.

Furthermore, the Spurs have the playoff experience. They have won the title 3 times in the last 8 years. Whilst for the Cavaliers, it is their first final appearance.

In conclusion, a 4-1 Spurs win. I hope I guess correctly. Man I have too many miss this season.

P.S: Thanks Gabriel for the jersey. Could not have done it without u.

What I think is missing

2007-05-24T13:39:00.000+08:00

Everywhere I look and see, people are celebrating winners. But people don't even acknowledge the existence of people in the backstage. Take for example, when I go jersey hunting(woohoo!!), whose jersey do I see. People like Lebron, Nash, Kidd, Pierce and the list goes on. I do not see jersey of support cast being sold. Ain't that sad. Does it mean that the jersey makers only think of profit($$$$) and sell the popular household names that they can ignore everyone else. I think that a great support cast is needed to make any team successful. Take a look into successful team, business organization or any organization and you take a look. The only reason why they are there is because of a correct mix. Let's look at the San Antonio Spurs for example but let me first state that I am not a huge fan of theirs. In fact, I am a huge huge Miami Heat fan. What do they have. Well, they have superstars of course. Manu, Parker and of course Tim Duncan. On top on that, you add the veterans of Brent Barry, Finley, Horry and fresh faces like Oberto and Elson. Not to forget about the key ingredient a great coach in Gregg Popovich. And there you have it, a good team. Can any team in league be as deep as them? I don't think so. They are going to be a dynasty I know. Haha!! So yes, a great support cast is needed anywhere. So even though I don't enjoy saying this but let's be a gentleman and say " Let's go spurs!!"

What a playoff

2007-05-16T13:45:00.000+08:00

The season been really long for me, you guys read me. My team is out of contention. But this season is like so unpredictable. I mean the warriors defeated the mavericks. The 8th seed knocking off the 1st seed. The Bulls defeated the defending champions and my favourite, the miami heat. The jazz are in the western conference final in years. This is just so funny. I mean I have not seen such a playoff before man. Ya I know I always have supported the underdogs but isnt this alittle too much for comfort my brothers? I also expected like 1 or 2 upsets but when I look at this years brackets, I looked shocked. First, I expected the mavericks to win their series easily. I thought that the rockets might have been alittle stronger with their playoff experience as well as getting both their superstars back from injury. The bulls sweeping the heat. That was unbelievable. I thought my team would have put up a better fight. I know that they had the injuries and stuff but I thought they could have put up a better fight. 4-0. That is like a knockout. God. Now all the we reach the time for the conference finals , I am so looking forward to more upsets and pains. So you guys look out ya.

A toast to a great man

2007-05-15T14:07:00.000+08:00

My secondary schoolmate died after a plane crash into the building he was in. He was only 19. The case is still open and I really feel sad for him and his family. Though I am kinda like a "hi" and "bye" friend, I genuinely feel that Singapore has lost one of her talents. He was a smart kid.( topped the level) He was kind and caring towards all who knew him. And I guess as all who know him will say ultimately that he has a big heart. I have been meaning to write this post earlier but I was not in the mood. Just want to give u a silent memorial and to let you know that you will be remembered in my heart, Isz. My silent goodbye. Peace out.

My status

2007-05-09T22:47:00.000+08:00

Guess what boys? I'm single again. There were much differences between the both of us that lead to breakup. If you want to know ask me personally cause there were just too many differences. I know I wrote a post about relationship before. I wrote that I can't see why people have multiple relationships nowadays. Haha!! At least now I can understand why to a certain extend. It is difficult to maintain a relationship. At least I don't have to go through it again. Haiz...

freedom discipline

2007-04-16T10:18:00.000+08:00

I read this from somewhere but I think it applies totally to me. I don't really know how to explain the term but I will try my best ok. Basically the idea is that if you force an idea into someone and make him or her do it repeatedly until the person get so used to it that it becomes in the subconscious of the person. As a kid, I was not a good student. I hated to study because I did not do well. But my parents probably knew the value of an education. So they forced me to study. All I could remember was tuition, tuition and more tuition. I was basically studying for them. I made a change only in secondary 3. I was in the top 10 in class for the first time. It felt good I remembered. That is probably when I realised that I could be good. So I took my work more seriously. I know my grades til now have not been that great but I feel proud of it. In JC, it was a first time I begged my mum get me tuition, I need it. It got imprinted in me liao. So this is one of the examples, that is more I think but I too lazy to write it out... Bye!!

Point

2007-04-03T17:19:00.000+08:00

A point guard is often called the floor general because he is supposed to be a the mini coach on the floor. His traditional role to is to distribute the ball and to torch opposing teams from the outside. But this is all in the past now. Look at the atypical point right now. They drive in the lane, they score at will and they may not the top assist leader of the team. I so disappointed cause that is my favorite position in the whole team. Anyways, my favorite point of all time is John Stockton. He makes the game look so easy. He is not a flashy player but always get the job done. He has done it all. All time assist leader, been on all NBA first team, all NBA defensive teams, NBA all star, Olympic medalist and is one of the 50th Greatest players in the NBA history. The only regret I can think of is that he did not win a ring. Its a pity that he was defeated twice but the mighty Bulls led by none other than Jordan himself. Stockton had that composure about him. I guess that is like what is expected of a point. Like all Greats, he did not get there but luck. He did it through hard work, determination and through a love for this very game. I look up to him. Anyways, another point I look up and adore is my main man Frederick Phua. He is one of the guys that just does not like to lose as much I do. Most of the times more than me of course. As a player, I have learned more from him than anyone I ever knew. Off court, he taught me friendship and what it meant to be a big brother. He taught me all the intangibles like doing your very best, not giving up and much more. Fred, if you are reading this, well don't get too big head after reading this. I respect you ok. I just going to keep beating you in one thing I do best. Studying. And of course I will make it to the IMF I promise. I want to make more $$ than you. I don't care. Friends forever ok. Peace.

Relationships

2007-03-28T23:04:00.000+08:00

Its been years now that I have been looking forward for a long term relationship. But of course when I say long term, I totally mean long term. I mean so many people these days that treat their relationships too lightly. I have seen too many breakups that I am too weary to get into one myself. Call me old-school but it is just me. I mean what for you get into a relationship when you can't handle it right?? That is what I so totally think lor. Anyways as much as I wanted, I could not get any cream of the pie. Here was a guy that was not smart, not handsome and not rich right? On top of that, he is lame and acts all crazy when he is hyper. But I guess that there will always be someone who appreciate a certain someone like me right? You know who you are. And you are all so mine. Hehe...

I finally hit the big 2

2007-03-25T11:25:00.000+08:00

It was my 20th birthday yesterday. 2 decades worth of life. And still many more years to go or so I think. Anyways, I had a fun time with all my best mates out at the cheesecake cafe. I don't and will never know if they felt the same but that was my take anyway. However somehow I am starting to feel old liao. Maybe it is just a psycho kind of thing right? Maybe become I just joined the 20th club ya. BK I join you liao. Hehe!! Somehow I want to be a kid again. Maybe cause I always felt like a kid. Come next year no more kid. I will be officially adult. Damn sianz sia. So my plan for this year is to enjoy enjoy and enjoy some more. So boys bring out the kid in me.

My Dad

2007-03-20T20:33:00.000+08:00

I have what I would say a very special relationship with my Dad. We hardly even talk but I always knew how much we meant to each other. And when we had our conversations, I think I got to see a side of him others had a chance to see. He is wise, smart and always has a good analysis for me. On top of that, he has come for me big time. He helped me during my times of needs at the 'A's and 'O's. Pro right. So old can still remember stuff he did donkey years ago. How can you top that? Tell me.

Laid-backness

2007-03-18T12:42:00.000+08:00

Laid-backness? Is there such a word? Or did I just invent a new word all by myself. Anyway I guess its not a quality but just a state of mind. But to me its part of me. I not the kind of person to be at the forefront, in fact I just like to chill at the back and taking things easy. I don't like things to be complicated. When things go rough, apply the 3 Gregory Golden Rules. "I don't care, I don't want to know, whatever." And it works in all situations and problems in life. Guess I just like to leave the problem to someone else lor. I don't like to make it mine. So that may be a little fault of in my character, so I hope my girlfriend might forgive me on this. Haha. That is all I have to say. =>

Patience

2007-03-17T21:06:00.000+08:00

Patience is another innate quality that everyone pocesses. One can be impatient or one can be very patient. I think I lie somewhere in between but of cause there are situations where I have reached the 2 extremes. To me, I feel that everyone should try to make an effort to reach a higher tolerance level because it has many benefits. First, if one is more patient, I would assume that one would be more calm. When that happens, one would be put in a better position to analyze a situation and come up with a better decision. On top of that, tempers would not flair if people were more patient to hear each other side of the stories and their reasons for coming up with a decision. More than that, I feel patience is like an acquired taste. I always associate patience with people who mediate alot because they would have acquired inner peace through mediation. Patience is important in daily lives since our lives are getting more and more stressful through globalisation. So it is always a good habit to make an effort to remember that the world does not revolve around you and try to make an effort to be more patient. Peace ya!!

Arrogance

2007-03-14T10:39:00.000+08:00

Oh sweet sweet arrogance of man. I think that is a little abit of arrogance in every single one of us. It is just whether u want to flaunt it or not. This works for Greg as well. Greg is most probably the most laid-back kind of guy you might ever come across. Just always trying to relax and looking for ways to "eat snake". Just don't hit the nerve of Greg's. If you ever do, you will see him trash talking. Now you don't want that to happen do you. He has got the best teacher ever. Mr Gary Payton. Period. Greg can talk and talk alot if he ever wants to. Just ask his friends. He is a bloody lamer. Ya. So that about it. Peace. :)

The world is flat

2007-03-11T14:49:00.000+08:00

A couple of months back, I was reading Thomas Friedman's book, the world is flat. It really educate me about Globalisation. It was a pretty good read with not too much technical terms in it. I will recommend it to people who wants to know more about Globalisation. I found it enjoyable cause he would talk about a certain issue and put lots of real live examples to support the case. Furthermore, it is a very light read. The book is 500-odd pages so the only draw back is that its pretty heavy to carry around. The next book I want to get my hands on would be: it is not about the bike.

My take on education

2007-02-27T22:14:00.000+08:00

I always hated it when I hear seniors tell their juniors when it comes to choose courses to choose something that they like. I seriously have a problem with that. To me, when it comes to choosing a course, there must be 2 main factors we must consider. They are: interest and the potential of the industry. Of course, you must try to score an equilibrium between the 2 factors because you can't have one without the other. Interest is the love for the industry that you would potentially work in. This is fairly important because you must realise that you would potentially be working in the industry for the next 30- 35 years. To me, potential in the industry means that you must take note of the industry and to see if it can be growing over the next 30 -35 while you working cause your job, promotion and pay all depends on it. Why I say it depends on both these factors because you must realise very often you get tired of working in the choosen field after working for a dozen years. Why? Office politics, skills upgrading, increase in work workload and stuff like that makes you damn piss. But then again you can't quit. Why? You probably started or just started a family, you got mortgages to pay, you got elderly parents and you want a decent lifestyle right? So you are left with no choice but to work. That is why potential in the industry is important. You must be sure that the industry can be growing so you can be sure of increments, promotions and bonuses. That is the reason I am so against people saying just choose whatever you like. It just piss me off cause they don't think before giving advice. And because of that alot of people find out too late in life and I guess they feel cheated. So I hope people might find what I say useful and helpful. Peace out.

7 reasons why I want to succeed in life

2007-02-23T15:25:00.000+08:00

07) I want to get out of my inferiority complex .

06) I want to show the world what I am made of.

05) I don't want to be in the shadows of others anymore.

04) I want to show unorthodox methods also works.

03) If don't succeed, how to work for IMF.

02) If I don't succeed, hey at least I can say I have tried.

01) I hate the feeling of being a loser.

I think its time to give up.

2007-02-23T15:06:00.000+08:00

I am the kind of guy that takes losing quite seriously. I just don't like the feeling no matter how jovial a person I may seem to you. It is just something I treat with so much disgust. But in this instance, I have given much thought and I think I might just throw in the towel. At least I could say to myself that I already waited for a long period of 6 years for her answer but to no avail. Yap I quitting all right. You cannot force love. It has from the heart. I could take some lessons from this relation and I think I will use it as guide on how to approach further relations. I feel so relieved that I took this emotional baggage away from me and not leave myself hanging. So much for my happy ending. It time to start over. :-)

my future plans

2007-02-06T17:24:00.000+08:00

I thought about it for like a couple of years now what I am going to do with my life and I think I have came to a conclusion. Next few years, it is pure studying for me. That is a must. I told my Dad," Look take me to where's your limit." I think that is only fair. What I pray is that he can bring me to finish or almost complete my master's. I don't really like the idea of funding myself. Ideally I would like to work at the MAS but its not for me to decide. If that fails, I guess I would like to work at Citibank. If you ask me today what my dream was, it would be to join the IMF as an economist. Why? I never liked the idea of a desk-bound job. As an economist, I guess there would be chances for me to go out and travel to some developing country to take a look at how they operate. I enjoy such field operations once in a while. Anyways, that is a little far-fetched. They need top economist. Me? Don't think I'm up there yet. But who knows? One fine day, the Gregory theory may just appear in your child's textbook. Hehe!! This post is probably better than the previous one but what the hack who cares? I ain't going to allow an old man piss me off so much. Mum says" Don't plan so much. You would change it sooner than you think." Nah. This time I think its for real. I will work towards it. I promised! Scouts honour.Peace out!

What do you expect me to think?

2007-02-06T11:44:00.000+08:00

Last Sunday, I went with my mum to do the groceries as usual. Along the way, I met an old neighbour. We chatted a little for a while. I was ok until a point where the uncle kinda pissed my off. Why?? He asked me"What you going to do after you ORD? Poly?" What the hell?? DO I LOOK THAT INCOMPETENT TO YOU?? I told him in a nice manner, "I going to NUS." He looked shocked. He was not the first one and definitely not the last. Other people I may understand, but this fellow I was angry because he saw me in Serangoon Junior College uniform day in day out for 1 and a half years. And boy he still thinks I am going to poly. I know I look lay back and not all that smart but why does it seem that a whole lot of people don't think I can make it huh? I think alot of it has to do with the fact that people don't see the heart and determination I put in work. Were they there when I put in all that hard work? Or when I never missed a single day of class cause I know its all good for me? Or when I felt I was so tired after doing all my work? Were they there? It always about perception. I know my siblings do alot better than me. That is my motivation. I cannot let my mum down. She has done too much for me. I can't break her heart. I think I know that she is really angry with me some times for too much trash talk but I think trash talk is very important to me cause it is an avenue for me to vent my anger and relieve myself. It just like why I keep talking about basketball or watch a game. It is my way of venting it out. Only I understand myself best. What do you want me to think? I can't make it so I should back off and go home to cry? No no, I never going to give up. Trust me!! God bless all those in the same position as me! If anyone who really is and you need someone to talk to, leave a comment and I try to get back to you.

Bk birthday bash

2007-02-04T13:41:00.000+08:00

Last week, me and the guys celebrated Bk's birthday at Pete's Place at the Grand Hyatt hotel's basement. The food was great and cheap.( that is if you went with a lot of people like us!!) There was even time to catch up with old pals like Yappy and Yan Zhang. Man I miss those guys. Even people like Shu Ling and Qian Er showed up. I think it was a great honor for Mr Bk to be in the presence of so many people, right? I want to apologize to management if we were a little rowdy.( maybe a little too rowdy) I want to go Bk a big shoutout here and wish him all the best in whatever endeavors he may choose to pursue in the coming year as he reaches the big 20. Here's to my one of my best friends. Cheers!!!

Here is one for the album guys!!

Malaysia Trip agn :-)

2007-02-01T18:27:00.000+08:00

Last weekend I was back at Malaysia again. This time it was for a whole different purpose . I was there to witness my cousin's wedding. I thought it would turn out a very boring process but it would turn out otherwise.

It took about a whole long 3 hours to arrive at Malacca town. I had arrived only at night due to the fact that my siblings had school. Upon arriving, I went to check out the bridegroom's home after settling in the hotel. The house was pretty nice. It was big and comfortable and the house was decorated very beautifully. Food was served like Malacca style. I rated it so-so. But before you know it, I was pretty drunk. I thought at first that taking a tiger was alright. Yet, after finishing the tiger, I realized that they had a better item available. Whiskey!!!! I went ecstatic. I just went ga-ga after that or so I think. At first, I decided that I only wanted a sip. However, the worst side had the better of me. I decided to have a few glasses after Uncle Noel had nudge me on man. Haha, my face was so red that it resembled a poor cooked shrimp. This was on top of the fact that I had sunburnt after a hard day's work the day before. Whoa. Greg drunk. A situation irony cause you don't usually associate them together.

The funniest thing had happened to me next. I had met one of the bridegroom's relatives after dinner. He recognized me almost instantly as a coworker without me even remembering him to the slightest bit. And he made me realize that the world is really getting smaller. Once just fellow coworker, now relatives. Haha!

The next day, it was off to church in the morning. After the Mass, I spent time at the bridegroom house again to just laze around and have lunch. I had 2 meals man!! It kinda made me feel a little sick but anyways who really wants to know that right?

In the evening it was off to the wedding dinner which was pretty unique in its own sense. It was a chinese dinner with a western twist. You see the dinner served was actually a full 10 course chinese meal which was above average to say the least but the crucial difference I felt was that there was actually a live band and there was a dance floor for people to dance while others had their dinner. I took the opportunity to ask the lady beside me to dance and it was pretty alright. And again, I was pretty 'drunk' that night.

Finally it was time to go home the next day. We checked out like about 12 after having a nice breakfast and packing up. I reached home like 4 plus and was pretty shagged. I had to come home early due to the fact that I had work the next day or else I would have asked Dad to allow me to stay little longer.

Cheers!

Boring period ahead

2007-01-12T17:54:00.000+08:00

It has been raining cats and dogs these past days. And I guess it has been limiting everyone movements indoors. Thats definitely includes me man. As a self-professed jogaholic, I can't go jog around my neighborhood any time soon. It has been raining like for hours and hours, that time does not seem ever to pass. People say like, " Gregory, it like good weather to sleep man. So what you complaining about man." Even then, you don't sleep the whole day right. It is not like I want to go hibernate or something. I want really want to do something outdoors. Whether it is to shoot some hoops, jog or even go take a bus( I want to be dry)

Which led me to think why does it rain so hard?? Is there a scientific reason? Is it because of the melting ice cap or stuff like that?? It just make me wonder sometimes.

Anyways, I am pretty delighted to find out that O'neal, Posey and Walker will be returning to the team as of today man. O'neal of course will only be practicing with the team only. But to me, that is a good sign. I mean the team seems so short-handed and these starters returning only means a good sign. On top of that, people like Jason Kapono will get first team experience during the absence of people mentioned above. I still believe that they have what it takes to make it to at least to the conference semis. And anything after that is pure luck. So you go Heat!!

Peace out!

im back

2007-01-01T13:18:00.000+08:00

I been back like for a week plus and I still in that holiday mood man. Just can't concentrate at work, you know what I mean. I just wished that I could have stayed just a little longer but you know I got my constraints. This year maybe I would like to visit the USA again. I know I may just visit Dallas again but you know I really want to visit like Florida if I can. I would like to pay a visit to the Heat. I know that they are on a losing streak right now but I still will support them. I mean they got the right mix. People think I am crazy for ball but that is really been my passion since like ages ago. I mean its really what kept me alive during my junior college days. I was a mugger and this was the only thing that was keeping my sanity. So the people just don't get it.

Anyways, I am looking forward for a new year. A new year, a new beginning as I always say. My new year resolution? Don't tell you cos it is too long and I don't think I can achieve it anyways. That should be all for today!! Cya.

I dun know wat e hell is she up too

2006-12-11T14:03:00.000+08:00

Hey its me again... Ok 2 post ago I told you how pissed I was at this particular person right? I been having mixed feelings about it this couple of weeks. I finally managed to catch with her like last week. And I'm waiting for her reply about this Thursday but she trying very hard to play hard to catch. I hate that feeling, you guys digging me. For the meantime, I just trying to play it cool. I told some you guys already that I have long thought it through about 11 months back and if it this time it does not work then I all right with it. Maybe all along it was just my wishful thinking. Nevertheless, I not giving up... I always said that the greatest test of a man is his ability to fight his fears and wait. I have to be patient with this girl. I have to fight my inner demons to show her who I am and what I really stand for... Maybe just maybe then I will melt her heart and live in eternal bliss. I have seen too many people just give up like that. So early, too early. Sometimes you think its all lost and to me thats the freaking difference. You don't just give up like that. Fight. In soccer, the coach will tell you to play the full 90 minutes. In basketball, the coach will tell you to play the full 40 minutes. In tennis, you have to play the full 3 sets. If you don't play to standard, what happens. Either you get substituted out and get the full "hair-blowing" experience or you lost the match. "The game's on schedule, we have to play it, we might as well win it." Wise wise words out of Mr Bill Russell. That has been my motto since like forever. Some of you might not agree with me but thats what I really really feel man. I see other happy with their boyfriends or girlfriends and I always tell myself wait and it will be your turn soon. You just have to keep trying. Wei Ren has been telling me maybe my success will only come when I become an adult. Maybe she feels that way too. I think if I can meet up with her more often, and show her who I really am then she will accept me. The radio was playing my love song - beautiful soul. It has probably the essence of what I really want to tell her. And if you are reading this and I pray that you do, I mean every single word I say on this freaking page. My heart has not changed since like 5 years ago. It died a couple of times but it does not mean I give up. So if you read this, know that I still digging you and I really trying to take it slow and everything just like the way you wanted me too. If I taking it too slow, speed up for me a little bit.
p.s: When it comes to love, I'm a totally loser.

i gg to malaysia

2006-12-11T13:53:00.000+08:00

Its that time of the year. We all have to clear leave right. So I decided that it was high time to go back to Malaysia to visit my Grandma at Sarawak. I just going back to relax and chill, you know i mean. It been a long time I last went back but I am glad that I can go back. Thats nothing really much to do back there except to eat and sleep and that precisely what I going to do. Maybe I will ball, then again I don't have my man Fredrick covering my ass for me man. Dude I miss you. It has been weeks since last I last balled... BOO HOO HOO... Sob sob... Anyways I leaving on the 19th an will only be back like on the 22th so don't miss me man... See you guys soon.

I just knew it...

2006-11-10T13:35:00.000+08:00

I am just so pissed off at this single person.. I thought I had outgrown in her shadows to build somewhat my own when she starts to get back into mine again... I thought she was hinting chances but she never once did mean what she meant... So now I am left here, not too sure if I am reading it wrongly or it was just coincides that led to what she did to me.. My heart has been broken too many times, so i feel numb... You know, I don't know what to say now... As they say' Let's leave it to fate'.

moi taking salsa

2006-11-02T16:30:00.000+08:00

haha i been taking salsa for a couple of weeks now... an i really enjoying it even though the people in my class r not within my age limit but i muz admit that i am having lots of fun... more fun then any experience i have any in this world... i think i want to learn some more... learn and learn... isn't it the greatest enjoyment in the world??

moi back at broadrick again

2006-09-27T15:36:00.000+08:00

I went back to Broadrick once again today to deliver my long awaited speech... It was painstaking cos it was my first time in fornt of such a large crowd but then again wasn't it wat I always wanted... Haix... I delivered it with a little bit of hesitation... A little sweat and a little nervous feeling down my spine... but overall I gave it a 6.5... There was eye contact and I think I got my ideas across... I dont think I saved everybody down there but I thought I saved a few who were privately asked me a few questions... So as long as I saved them it is all right to me... By the way guys I'm going to give tuition to Wei Ren and crew so I will be busy for a couple of weeks ya... See you guys again.